Originally Posted by
lady tine
he is out of my life... but there is one thing i still have him on my mind.... i keep regreting what i did... i sometimes think that he stil might email me or call me.....
there is no way i'm contacting him... but just wish i could completely get him out of my mind...
You cheated on your husband, broke your marriage vows and deceived him for months and all you get in return is regret, consider yourself lucky. I don't mean to be harsh but in my opinion you deserve worse.
Also that regret could be good for you in that it will help you stay loyal to your husband from now on.
I also agree a with faye1983, whilst it will be very hard for both him and you, coming clean about the affair to your husband could be a good thing, and even if it isn't your husband deserves the truth. Even though you have now stopped the affair, the deceit and lies will always be there if you don't and you have been deceiving him for long enough already, your husband deserves better.
There must have been some problem with your marriage in the first place otherwise you would not have sought an affair online. If you want to fix it completely it would help to be completely honest about everything.