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I'm sure some of you have already expected this and I am sorry I let you guys down and I also know I ultimately let myself down for going. It was just so hard to resist and honestly I did want to see him. The trip was fun. Most of the time I was with a different group. Different car. Different room. Different activity. BUT we all stayed in the same hotel. We didn't really talk to each other besides the usual " hi and bye...etc" However, on the way there he was texting me, saying stuff like I look so good, he misses me, etc. I was ignoring him at first and eventually gave in. I was texting back with just one word response. Then there were times when I look him and he just looked so sad. I could not stand the thought of hurting him. I feel horrible. After the trip, he did call me and we talked. He was saying he misses me so much and all he could think of was me the whole entire trip. He just wanted to be with me. I know I was giving him the wrong signals by entertaining him and telling him that I do miss him but at the same time I don't want to "officially" get back together because of his actions. He is not saying he will change. He just wants me to get back with him. I do miss him a lot and 85% of me wants to get back together. BUT I also want him to change. Is this a hopeless situation?
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