[alpha_zero]

Im no hero, just a guy trying to clean up some wet work. Im not going to back down but I do have a question. What if my ex is one of those girls that doesn't want me to back down and ended up contradicting herself and really wants me to tell her how much I care about her and that I want her back. What do I do then? What if we are both playing the NC game waiting for one of us to crack first. Im still going to keep it up though I feel I owe it to myself and give her what she wanted in the first place. I was just thinking about that. But sports and weight lifting were a part o my life. I was raised to be and think a winner and even if deafeated to raise my head and stick up high (played a lot of hockey) and know that it was meant to end that way only to come back stronger and wiser to win the next game. Thanks

[Homegirl 50]

This separation time may be just the ticket. It will come together as it should in due time if it is meant to be.

[alpha_zero]

Thanks that puts me at ease a bit, but I can't use that as a 100% positive thing and hope for cause it might not happen but I get where your coming from

[Homegirl 50]

You're in the right frame of mind, so you are going to fine either way.

[alpha_zero]

Well I wasn't thinking about becoming a physco killer if u were thinking that... (sarcasm) lol, but easy comes and easy goes

[Homegirl 50]

I never thought that. You're looking at things in their proper perspective. You're not obsessing, you're moving forward. That is a big plus in your favor.

[alpha_zero]

Lol boy oh boy did I ever learn about the obessessing 2 ex's ago WOW not a good thing. Just amagine hunting and if you chase your prey what's the chance you are going to get it lol. And thanks for talking with me, it helps a lot

[Homegirl 50]

Happy to know I was helpful.

[alpha_zero]

Update: Well nothing big here just trying to drain some time before work. But it has been a week since she dumped me. I felt the affects of being a bit upset when I first woke up this mourning. So far I feel very irritable and have a feeling it might continue during the day. But who can comlain I guess right. I guess me knowing it has been a week it is like a hangover to me right now and will probably go away as the day goes along or even tomorrow. Keep the head up high and always smile I suppose. Least ill see my friends at work today:)

[enigmagnetic]

It's like a drug addiction. You go through withdrawal. Eventually it subsides and you move past it and you become stronger. That's why the no contact things is crucial. I think someone in this forum said that before but I am stealing it and giving no credit.

[alpha_zero]

I think the thing that is killing me a bit is well I miss her but she is the first girl I have done anything sexual with (im turning 19 on the 30th) We didn't have sex but we did certain things for pleasure. But ohh well what can you do eh. Nothing to do tonight really even though it is a Saturday. Im tired from work and I'm not in to the whole bar and drinking thing, I am an athletic whore lol. So I think I'm just chilling tonight by myself watching some Hockey and Comedy channels to get a laugh or to and hit the sack early to study for mid-terms tomorrow. Peace

[alpha_zero]

Update: Well today went as good as yesterday went lol Not much going really. You know sometimes I look at my phone waiting for her to text or call me... but then I basically slap myself in the face and say something like *suck it up damn it, you did nothing wrong she wanted space I'm giving her what she wants, I'm not the problem*. But oh boy like yesterday was I REALLY Irritable today. If my parents asked me something more than once like they usually do I would raise my voice to them. I felt just 100% pissed off today. I can't wait to go to the gym tomorrow and unleash finally.

[alpha_zero]

K well now my head feels like it is going to blow. I found out from a source already either 1. She said she wanted space and in fact she liked another guy, or 2. She is already dating another guy after a week we broke up. I feel shattered right now. I feel just hopeless and stuff. I feel so emotional right now, sad, depressed, and anger. I don't know what to do. I think Will Smith put it best in the movie Hitch "One moment your gliding on air and the next your standing in the rain watching your life fall apart" I feel rotten :(

[needofhelp]

I know how you feel. I've been preparing myself for such news. It hasn't come and I'm not searching for it. But I do try to brace myself for such news. I tell myself that it doesn't matter. It doesn't change the situation much. You guys are still broken up, you still have to focus on yourself, you will be a stronger person after. If she is with someone else, it has no bearing on the type of man you are. It shows how weak she is. Some people always need someone to be around to make themselves feel better.

I felt all of those emotions you described when I saw a picture of her having a good time, soon after the break up. Take a walk, talk to your friends, do something to get your emotions out. Good luck to you brother. Stay strong.

[alpha_zero]

HUH... wow now I feel fine LMAo who knew. Kind of weird I guess I went in to a state of shock when I found out but now I don't know I feel fine... I feel free, and a sigh of relief really... or am I in a state of shock still cause I don't know I actually feel pretty good now. Hey if she wants to do that fine by me. Now that I think about it she ain't much of a good person to dump me over a text message... I feel sorry actually for the next guy LOL... why do I feel so good I have to idea lol. Thanks Man

[needofhelp]

That's great, I wish you can share some of that feeling with me. For someone to break up via text, that person is not worth your time. You deserve better than that.

[s_cianci]

I'd take what she says at face value. Give her the space she needs, sit away from her in class and on the bus and don't have any contact with her. Also get out and meet new people and get involved in other activities. Build yourself a life without her. This is the best thing you can do for yourself right now.

[alpha_zero]

No duh I'm going to give her the space lol. I started sitting away from her in class and on the bus. Seeing her face now is like me and country music, if I hear any of it it makes me want to take a gun and blow my brains on the sidewalk lol I can't stand that stuff. HMMM I wonder why I am taking this so well actually... Maybe I'm just in shock at it'll hit me tomorrow... I don't know I just feel good right now for some reason like I can lift the world above me shoulders, I have no idea lol it's like I feel I should be sad but I'm not... talk about your all time backfires lol

[smoothy]

Well keep up the no contact... just because you see her doesn't mean you HAVE to talk to her, or even interact with her. It will get even easier.

[alpha_zero]

Update: Well I woke up today feeling a bit... awkward... a bit down and a bit well funny feeling. I was pissed at first but then I merely shrugged me shoulders and just said to myself *hey her loss really, she wanted and I gave it to her. I did nothing wrong and if she wants to act this way like a child then so be it, I don't need a relationship to feel secure. She's missing out on a great person and I bet there are plenty of other girls at university that would be glad for them to call me their boyfriend.* I actually kind of feel sorry for the new guy actually cause rebounds usually suck anyway, least from what I heard.

Anyway I was listening to some song today and I actually listened to the lyrics lately and surprised about how much they could mean that one day she's realise she screwed up, might be tomorrow, next week hell even in a few months but she'll realise it

For instance Burn inside My Light

*I gave and you taked and I waited for you but I made a mistake.
It's clear that your fear is so near because I see the look on your face.
You tried holdin' me under, I held my breath.
Alone and now you wonder what I possess.*
I guess you can say for this song that either way one day the idea of me will pop in her head and realise what I really did bring to the table and miss it.

And Justin Timberlakes song

*You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes
You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved
And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right
But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see*

That's pretty much self explanitory. I just got to keep my head up high and keep simling and know I am that damn good! Lmao Later