[N0help4u]

You mention still conscious a lot. What do you mean by losing consciousness? Fainting, uncontrollable anger, Is it common practice in your country to bargain prices with shops?
I know in the USA you just don't do that unless your tight with the store manager.

[CharmYou]

Is it common practice in your country to bargain prices with shops?

If the shop is private (owned by only a person or a family), we usually bargain. However if that is a franchised store (owned by a corporation), we don't.
The shop I went was franchised, so I shouldn't have bargained...

You mention still conscious a lot. What do you mean by losing consciousness? Fainting, uncontrollable anger, ?

I still remember that I was smilling when I was bargaining. But after getting rejected, I was much more conscious of my smile because I actually wanted to cry. However, I continued faking the smile because I didn't know what facial expression I should have worn. By still conscious, I mean I could still think, I was thinking what facial expression I should have been wearing... But I hadn't figure it out... so I was just standing there thinking "Should I cry? I want to but I can't...However, I am still smiling, how could I possibly still smile? Then which facail expression should I wear? If I suddenly change my expression will that be embarrassing?" So, I was just standing there hours and hours doing nothing but wore a faking smile... like an idiot...

The same thing happened when my math teacher took my book, I didn't know what to do with that, so I suddenly collapsed on my desk thinking how to act... While a strong feeling had made me cry... I was consciously thinking:"Why am I crying? It will be a humiliation for an 18-year-old to cry in public...But if I suddenly stop crying will everybody thinks I am acting crying?? So how can I stop crying? I can't abruptly stop crying but I shouldn't be crying..."... I hadn't figure it out until I have cried for nearly half an hour...

[N0help4u]

If you get that dumbfounded about what your facial expressions should be that you stand in a store for hours and collapse on your school desk I'd say you do need a therapist.

[odinn7]

If you get that dumbfounded about what your facial expressions should be that you stand in a store for hours and collapse on your school desk I'd say you do need a therapist.

He doesn't want to hear that. He wants us to tell him some magical solution for his problem but the more I read, the more I realize there is something much deeper going on here than we can help with.

[CharmYou]

If you get that dumbfounded about what your facial expressions should be that you stand in a store for hours and collapse on your school desk I'd say you do need a therapist.

Really... I have tried meditation to be honest but it didn't work..

He doesn't want to hear that. He wants us to tell him some magical solution for his problem but the more I read, the more I realize there is something much deeper going on here than we can help with.

Are you suggesting that I am a psychopath?.

[N0help4u]

As others have said you need to try self control

[CharmYou]

as others have said you need to try self control

Mhmm... Thanks...

[N0help4u]

Are you suggesting that I am a psychopath?...

Do you know what a psychopath is?
I think your problem is you dwell on things to obsessive extremes
And let your emotions get the better of you

[CharmYou]

do you know what a psychopath is?

No.. Maybe a person with mental disorder?

I think your problem is you dwell on things to obsessive extremes
and let your emotions get the better of you

Mhmm... yes... thanks...

[Homegirl 50]

I think we are either dealing with a troll or this kid has issues we cannot deal with.
He is behaving like a spoiled child, or a person with mental problems.

[odinn7]

I think we are either dealing with a troll or this kid has issues we cannot deal with.
He is behaving like a spoiled child, or a person with mental problems.

I completely agree and have been thinking the same thing.

[N0help4u]

Psychopath - serial killer or violent type thoughts. Unremorseful.

By the way what country are you from?

[CharmYou]

Psychopath - serial killer or violent type thoughts. Unremorseful.

Sorry I don't know that, my native language is Chinese. I typed this word because the Chinese defination of "psychopath" is "精神病患者"(meaning a person with mental disorder). I didn't know that. I'm sorry.

By the way what country are you from?

China.

[joypulv]

(I for one agreed to no longer suggest that someone might be a troll directly in a thread, after a traumatic argument among many responders about a stated child molestation two weeks ago.)

I'd like to go back to the gynecomastia and the girlyness you showed at puberty. For all you know, your hormones were really out of whack then and still are, gay or not. If your dad can give you more money for clothes (what happened to the poverty?), maybe he can afford to have their levels tested.

[CharmYou]

I'd like to go back to the gynecomastia and the girlyness you showed at puberty. For all you know, your hormones were really out of whack then and still are, gay or not.

Can hormone influence how a human acts? I wonder.

what happened to the poverty?

Come on, I bought some cheap cloths because I am about to step into university, and I can't wear my high school uniform to college, can I? The price of the pair of jeans I liked is ￥96, which equals to $15. I bet it's cheaper than a bread you eat...

If your dad can give you more money for clothes, maybe he can afford to have their levels tested.

What does this have to do with hormone? It may have something to do with self-control as others have mentioned... but how could hormone possibly manipulate my action?

[N0help4u]

Yes hormone levels can cause you to be acting the way you do.

[CharmYou]

Yes hormone levels can cause you to be acting the way you do.

Really, I'll try.. Thanks..

[Wondergirl]

Really, I'll try..Thanks..

Try what?

[CharmYou]

Try what?

Try getting my hormone tested.

[J_9]

Getting your hormones tested isn't going to tell you anything other than why you may not have facial hair. It won't tell you why you are gay. It won't tell you why you act the way you do.