[michaeljr]

I was looking at my grandfather how dark and wrinkly he was in the casket, and thinking to myself if I will look so dark when I am lying there. I'm really obsessed about light skin it's effecting me mentally but I will get into that elsewhere. And I'm not that dark to begin with, I am mestiza, tan skin. I still apply 20% a few times a week but I don't know if the places I have been buying from are the real deal.

Sorry about your grandfather and Riax needs to post more instead of that same duplicate post, but I can relate to being obsessed. There was a time I was in the hospital to have my tonsils removed and all I could think about was how much of my uneven dark arms, legs were exposed and how horrible my skin looked in their lightning, but how the lightskin people looked so good in it. Since then I have been hooked on antidepressents just to get through the day. You really need to pick yourself up and see a doctor, take their advice don't listen to the sellers that are showing more mono down your throat and lightening our wallets. It doesn't really matter source good or bad, it's going to buck your skin up more and more until you quit. Or at least take a long long break. Please.