OK - first, calm down. The first test was negative but it was too early to take it. Follow directions on the package and take it first thing in the morning, after enough time has passed for a reliable result.
Next, this should be a wake up call. You are too young for sex. You are not at a point in life where you can accept the consequences of failed birth control and are not in a committed relationship (Nothing short of marriage is committed enough for risking pregnancy in my view). As you are probably realizing, there are not easy or good options when you get pregnant too young so do not risk it.
Your boyfriend is too old for you and will rush you into situations like the fear you are now experiencing. Break up with him. Date boys your own age, and keep things age appropriate - meaning, sex is off the table.
If you are pregnant you have time to work through things. Tell your parents, see a doctor. If you don't believe in abortion, great (I don't either). I am an adoptive parent - I am pro-adoption. It's an option well worth considering that allows you to finish growing up, but also allows your child to live and for you to provide all that you want to him or her by choosing a family that can provide what you most value. But you are not even sure you are pregnant, so don't need to worry about all that yet.
What you do need to worry about is living way, way too fast for your age - this boyfriend has to go, no matter anything about him, whether you love him, whatever - he could go to jail for having sex with you - is that what you want?
Even if you're not pregnant, you should talk to your parents about this experience.
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