Word. You're 21. I'm 32 and have only truly been in love once, with a guy I met in college. First we were best buddies, then we started dating Junior year in college for almost a year. It was emotionally deep, we said the L-word and all that. After the summer, we broke up; it was kind of messy, and I was heartbroken. We hung around together at various college friend get-togethers after college, and I loved seeing him. But we didn't live near each other. I started dating a few people, then found someone I liked- I made him laugh, I could finish his songs, and he was just a nice guy that fit in well with my life. I loved him. Was I in love? Heart-pounding, chest-tightening love? Maybe I thought so, but nope.
Here I am, married w/kids, having a decent life, but pining for someone I'll probably never see again. And I love him. There was no closure with him. I dream about him a lot. And it sucks. And life now sucks. How can you do life when you're not in love with your partner? Ugh!:(
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