[guidance23]

I'm surrounded by people all day long every day, but I feel so alone. I also feel beneath everyone. I don't feel smart or wanted by anyone I am around. I feel like I fall short in everything I do. I work so very hard everyday and I still do not feel good enough to be in anyone's presence. I work for a state park and after having an extra hard day today I ended up shoveling goose poop in front of everyone on the swimming area beach while pretty girls with futures laughed at me. I feel like that's the story of my life, when will I ever matter to anyone?

[rustyshakleford]

Dear guidance23,

I am surprised that no one has given you any advice on your issue.

I have been in similar situations and know of people who feel very similar to the what you have described. First off, I want to say that you need to know that you are most definitely not alone. It's easy to feel like this especially as it seems you have a lack of confidence. Something that is hard to gain when if you are a negative thinker. I think the first step to address your problem is to build relationships with those around you. Perhaps you have work colleagues who you can strike up conversation with. I know sometimes we can have bad days and crap happens where we will feel humiliated and end up dwelling on these things. One way that helps me is to stop thinking that people are laughing at us in a personal manner and try to make light of the situation. For example, what if you were someone sitting on the beach and you saw something that seemed amusing. Perhaps you might think it funny too but by no means would you be laughing at the person involved but more at the situation itself'. Then maybe you can start to realise that you can let go of feeling like this. If you hold onto this feeling it will only give you misery but if you let go of it then you will find peace. Just remember no matter how bad you feel, keep your chin up and don't let anything bring you down. It's not worth it. Keep telling yourself positive things as in life, only you can encourage yourself. Once you get a better outlook on things, good things will naturally happen to you. Be sure to socialise, make small steps. :-)

[Nikki7347]

Wow, I am really sorry you feel this way. Don't let anyone make you feel bad. Honestly you will probably have a greater future than most of those girls. Unlike them you actually think for yourself, you use your brain. By the way you described those girls they are snotty and insecure so they have the need to bring you down. They probably don't even know why they laugh at you yet, but it is because they are jealous. Somewhere deep inside they know that you have courage. That you have a future ahead of them. You are probably really pretty and smart, you just don't realize it. Stop bringing yourself down and find a way to like yourself the way you are. Things will get better.