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Asher
I may seem happy on the outside, but I'm really not. I'm thinking of getting a part time job, but I'm too afraid of starting off new in a different environment. I really wonder if starting off new is that bad because I hear the experiences of others.
I think a part-time job is a great idea, or better yet, volunteer work. There's nothing like helping other people who have it worse than you do to get yourself off the pity pot. Also, a work-type situation is a good way to have interactions with other people without the pressure of so many social expectations. Everybody has a job to do, and what talking and interaction goes on can be related to that, with a little joking and informal banter thrown in, but not having to feel like you're a stand-up performer playing a tough room.
It sounds like maybe you're putting too much pressure on yourself to be perfect and confident, when the reality is, you're seventeen and insecure and uncertain, like most seventeen year olds are, if the truth be told. You're really not so different, just more introspective and sensitive and self-critical than most. Lighten up and have some fun. Most people are so preoccupied with their own insecurities that they don't even notice yours.