Unfullfilled in the boudoir
I have never done this before, posted on a public forum that is but I feel desperate. My husband and I have been together for 12 years. In the last 8 years our sex life is extremely unfullfilling. When we dated, our sex life was out of this world. I realize that you can't have the sex life you did when you were dating.. marriage, kids, work etc seem to get in the way however, I feel very lost in our marriage as a result. My husband has stopped giving me oral pleasure, which of course I really enjoy. When I say he hasstopped, I mean years will go by.Most recently, after a 3 year oral sex sabbitcal of me being on the receiving end, he attempted,stopped and told me I taste bad. I was beyond humilated. I have given him oral pleasure in the past and he has had the "man smell" but I carried on. I knew if I stopped during and said something at the moment it would impact our sex life.You don't know me but I am one who takes pride in maintaining my (ADL's) activity of daily living skills. I am a very clean person, I work out at least 4 days a week, am a runner and have completed 4 marathons. I also pride myself on smelling good and looking presentable. I don't know if I can recover from this. I feel so lonely in that department in our marriage as it is. Our marriage on other fronts are fine... I feel more like a roommate than a lover.
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