[BMI]

He told you to tell us about the paternal thing?? Sounds like he and you are justifying your actions to avoid confronting the fact that the behaviour you both diplay is that of gay men.

I can't help but point out the irony at the fact you say you hate gay people, your attracted to this MAN and you dream about this MAN and you smell this MAN while he is sleeping. Perhaps you should re-visit your stance and attitude towards the gay community, remove your double standard perspective and see reality first though.

Lastly, removing yourself from this situation would be very wise, with all that is going on I suspect you have a lot of thinking and analyzing to do about yourself, not to mention learning. Your comments about not wanting to be gay are also of some concern, NOT being yourself is a terrible way to live, I believe you have no idea who you are, better to spend time learning about yourself and less time pursuing this crazy affair. I think you would benefit from some counselling to perhaps uncover why these feelings have surfaced, and why you are so against them, it would do you good my friend.

Your comment aboutitbeing aproblem within you and not him is not quite accurate. This advice applies to him as much as it does to you. His actions,in some ways, are more bizarre than your own.

[chubi]

Well, I just copy paste to him some of your replies.
You are all right! He's toying with me, for him I'm just filling the gap of his free time. Totally carefree about what I might feel or react. His response was also silly: 'Here we go again.'
He showed me his MSN, it's full with girls, while he is saying goodbye to his girlfriend on the phone, he is dating another one on MSN. He is not gay, but he is very feministic, hanging around with every girl.
As for me, I got the wrong behavior, which he inspired to me, for the sake of his leisure time.
He's feeling hot all the time, just needing someone near to absorb his sexual heat. Naturally girl, but happened a man around him that he is very impressed and admiring his success and fake personality.
I frankly had no father before, and no one to guide me, I took my Master very hard, and I was raised in the wild.
I donno what experience I'm out to, I'm getting drifted to nowhere.