Hi. Thanks for your support. I didn't read the posts until right now because I didn't realize I had to turn the page!
The reason I am so upset is because I am worried about myself. If it's not this guy, it'll be another one just like him. I have REALLY poor instincts when it comes to relationships. I just get so attached and love someone blindly. That's what worries me. And I pour my whole self into them and helping them, thinking they will do the same thing back and they don't.
I was in a total fantasy about my future with this guy, which was fostered by his lies.
I hate breaking up. It makes me so lonely.
He actually just called and left a message. I haven't responded. Proud of me?
I got upset about taliman's comment because telling me I'm screwed up is obvious and hurts even more. I'm too sensitive for that. The intention behind it may have been good, but it came out bad.
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