[FakingBeauty]

So...
I'm almost 14
Last October my boyfriend dumped me for this girl I hang around with. They broke up a week later.
Not only was he my (first) boyfriend of 4 1/2 months (short-lived, I know) but he was also my best friend of 3 years.
I still have to hang around with him because he's friends with my friends, but we don't talk much. My best friend (who is also his best friend) told me that he told her that he is still in love with me, but I don't know if she's telling the truth.
The pain of losing him was so bad that I began to slit my wrists a few months ago.
I didn't tell any of my friends because my best friend used to slit and it really upset us.
Recently I cut the first letter of his name into my wrist and I failed to conceal it well enough because one of my friends saw it. She got really upset and I just denied it. She didn't believe me. Then another of my friends saw my wrists. I denied it again but my best friend got really angry and is now not talking to me.
I don't what to do
Do I tell my friends the truth? I'm scared of how they'll react. If my best friend is acting like this now, how would she act if I admitted it? She keeps telling me to prove that I don't slit by showing her my wrists, but I can't.
Should I just conceal it further?
Technically, my friends are being hypocrites about the whole not slitting thing, because they cut hearts and smiley faces into their arms.
The cuts aren't even that bad. And I don't want to stop because it makes me feel better.
Should I talk to my ex about it? (since he is the one who drove me to self-harm in the first place)
A lot of people are calling me emo and asking me if I slit my wrists, which makes me feel even worse and slit even more.
This attention-seeking, wannabe-emo girl who I sometimes hang around with told one of the teachers that I slit and now I'm scared the teacher will tell my mum, who swore she'd put me into a children's home if she sees me slitting.
Please don't give me answers like:

"Ur pathetic go 2 hell cutter"
OR
"Ur emo, i hate emos" (I'm not an emo, and slitting has nothing to do with being an emo)
OR
"my frend slits"
OR
"this is just a dumb craze, get over it" (I'm not doing it because it is cool or because everyone else is doing it. I'm doing it because it makes me feel better)

And please don't tell me to stop (because I've tried) or to get counselling (because I had to get counselling when my best guy friend (whom I loved) was murdered 2 years ago and I hated it)

[MasuBhat]

.. well you'll stop cutting yourslef after you'll I find happyness.. and hope you'll..

Y do you need to cut yourself when you hear your fren say that he lovs you still?. if you want to no if it's true.. than act cool.. in front of him.. and act as if you'r flirtin with him and ask him.. etc.. and being emotic is normal.. but and easy way out of emotic is flirtyness..

What m I saying/>
'hope it helped! Niway:)

[Choux]

I think you are crying out for an understanding heart or no one would have seen any cut marks, no one, because it is against the code of your clique/gang/whatever.

The good news is that there are understanding hearts in the world, lots of them. You just don't happen to have any relationships with these wonderful people right now... that I can see from your question. One wise person can make a big difference in helping you guide yourself through life.

I never had children, so I'm totally out of it as far as what it is like to be a child and young person in America... so, all I can think of to say is ask your mother if you can go to your family physician because you don't feel well. I think you could possibly get some good advice and guidance there. I hope so.

Best wishes

[letmetellu]

I have no idea why you might cut yourself. But I do have an idea. If the cutting makes you feel god because you are being destructive to yourself then substitute something else for yourself. Like a punching bag, join a Karate class and use up all of that aggression of the people there. But do stop cutting, you will hate it in the future.

[N0help4u]

So you don't want to quit you are just afraid of your mom finding out.
Teachers are not suppose to tell parents much of anything because of confidentiality but then if they say you are endangering yourself they might.
BUT they may just call Children Services and your mom would find out anyway most likely.

[Fr_Chuck]

You need to talk to your parents about this, and let them help you get the professional help you need to deal with your problems.
Cutting although it has to some a temp high, it only causes more and more problems ( along with scars for life often)