[beth911]

Umm... nothing but sit their blankly stairing at a wall while I listen to music and think about how borin my life is and the last 6 years have been like this.

[beth911]

He said he signed up for the airforse but as much as he lies and makes things up how can I believe anything he says to me?

[talaniman]

You mean you can't think of a single thing you like to do? Nothing?? No wonder your having all these problems, why didn't you say so??

[beth911]

Music. Listening to it and writing it. That's it. Other things I don't see the point in. unless it's a sharp object . Lol. Just had to throw that in there.

[talaniman]

LOL, good one. What type of writing do you do, and do you like to read?

[beth911]

Just songs. I used to do poems but then got into songs. I hate reading.

[talaniman]

Do you play any instruments, can you sing? I know I'm full of questions, just curious as to who the real you is.

[beth911]

I USED to play the flute but EWW not now. Lol. I've taught myself to play the keyboard and do okay at it but I can't make up my own songs on it that great

[beth911]

And I have trouble trying to get the exact sound I want on it with all the different instruments and speeds and rythems and all that

[talaniman]

Sounds as if you have had no formal training, but would you like to learn, as a hobby I mean? I use to be bored to all the time, and just couldn't figure out what to do with all that time and didn't know what I liked, so I tried a lot of different things, before I bought a tablet and started to draw. I think maybe your in the same situation also, looking for something you like to do. You also sound like a little bit of a loner, nothing wrong with that mind you, I was for a long time, but sports brought me out of that.

[beth911]

Wondergirl, This e-mail he sent me really makes me mad. I already responded to it but I don't know what to do.
That's why I don't understand why your throwing a fit because I want to leave. I've known since I met you what you like. White wigger boys with shaved heads that listen to rap and act gangster. I think its stupid, and have made myself the exact opposite.
I believe I have a unique look to me, that makes me stand out from the rest of the people at our school. People find me interesting, but they don't know why. You on the other hand, are an average, generic looking pre-teen girl. I just don't like that.



The fact that he would compare me to those people. Really pisses me off.
I isn't nothing like them. I try to just be myself. I try to be different than them. To show them that I am against them.

[beth911]

I don't really like drawing TOO much but I like to have my own drawings if that makes sense.
I like when I have completed them. But I'm not too good at it and don't have the patience. And the only things I would want to draw are pictures with like the night sky and the moon... possibly shining down on water. Things like that

[beth911]

Omg I keep re reading that and it makes me so mad. I want to tell him how mad that makes me. Just the fact that he would say that about me. And he thinks were so different from each other... we both want to try to be differeent than everyone else. And I hate that he would see me as being like all those people.
I can't help but want to beat them off the earth now.

[talaniman]

Me too, I like shadows and highlights, I still get a kick out of drawing moustaches on guys in the Sunday comics, I know I'm boring.

[talaniman]

omg i keep re reading that and it makes me so mad. i wanna tell him how mad that makes me. Just the fact that he would say that about me. and he thinks were so different from each other... we both wanna try to be differeent than everyone else. and i hate that he would see me as being like all those ppl.
I can't help but wanna beat them off the earth now.

I think your to good, and special to be letting him live rent free in your head, as his behavior is disrespectful, and unacceptable. You deserve better. Not getting any attention from you, is what he deserves.

[beth911]

Lol. And I like to make fun of people on TV when its muted and you don't know what they are saying

[beth911]

And I want more friends but I can't find people I like and all the friends I ever had did one of the following things:

1. turned their back on me
2. only come to me when they want/need something
3. only were pretending to be my friend and never really cared

He's cared more about me than anyone other than family and look at how he treats me. That's pretty sad

[talaniman]

Lol. and i like to make fun of people on tv when its muted and you dont know what they are saying

Play the music with the sound on the TV down.

[talaniman]

and i want more friends but i can't find ppl i like and all the friends i ever had did one of the following things:

1. turned their back on me
2. only come to me when they want/need something
3. only were pretending to be my friend and never really cared

he's cared more about me than anyone other than family and look at how he treats me. thats pretty sad

Yeah it is, but most good friends I ever met where ones we shared common interests in, okay maybe I didn't make that may friends, okay just a few, but they turned out to be good ones. But that just makes my point, he is no friend, because of the way he acts and treats you. Your right that is sad. By the way, cartoons are the best to play the music with.

[beth911]

Wondergirl, I copied and pasted this but didn't read it yet because I'm afraid. Tell me what to say back. And I will not read it at all.