[Wondergirl]

Oh. Sorry, I forgot I even talked about that. lol. Yeah, I failed it because of the parellel parking. I had no Idea what I was doing.

Wow! Illinois doesn't even require parallel parking. I'm surprised your state does. I've rarely needed to know how because of pull-in parking everywhere. There's definitely a trick to parallel parking.

[beth911]

My mom told me that she didn't think they required it anymore. But they did and I couldn't do it so I failed. I hate driving though. I hate it with a passion. Anyway, back to J.

[Wondergirl]

The written part was a joke. One of the questions was something like:
When you get to a stop sign do you
A) All of the above.
B) Ignore it.
C) Stop.
D) Speed up.

Yeah, the written part you could pass in your sleep.

My favorite question was:

If you see a pedestrian in the crosswalk in front of you, do you:
a. drive around him
b. stop and let him cross
c. nudge him a little with your bumper so he hurries
d. just keep going

[beth911]

I'm afriad about tomorrow. I sure, hope they don't put me in the mental hospital or anything. That girl told the teacher I wanted to kill myself and so the school called my parents but I told my parents I had no idea what they were talking about and that I never said that.

[beth911]

Yeah, the written part you could pass in your sleep.

I didn't think I would pass it but then I couldn't help but laugh when I took it. I really did too. I talked to this one girl, she said it took her like 3 tries. Iv'e never passed a test in my life and I got it the 1st time.

[Wondergirl]

Could you give him a note? Would he read it? (I would tell you what to write.)

[beth911]

Could you give him a note? Would he read it? (I would tell you what to write.)

Iv'e tried. The one note, he said his friend took and wouldn't give back. I thought everything I said in it was perfect to get him to stay. I tried giving him another one. I told him to not let anyone get it but he didn't even take it. He just said "I'll just lose it." So, I told him to call me then. I wanted him to call so I could tell him what it said but he wouldn't let me. I tried telling him that I wanted to tell him what that note said but he just said "I made my desicion. I thought we were clear on this." I tried to tell him how much I wanted us to be together and he just said "Too bad, that isn't going to happen."

[beth911]

Wondergirl, where'd you go? Your not ice skating without me are you?
Well, I think I'm off to bed. Unless you had anything to tell me really quick.

[Wondergirl]

What will you do?

[beth911]

I don't know. I was hopeing that you would help me with that. As for, now. I really need some sleep. I just started screaming because I seen my hand up in the air from the corner of my eye and I thought it was a face. I'm so tired, I don't know what is going on. I know I probably don't make sense now and I'm probabley misspelling a lot. But I wouldn't be. I am just so tired. So, I will be on tomorrow. Shoud I worry about it? I mean do you think some point in time, he will talk to me? It bothers me to see him just be OK with the whole thing.

[Wondergirl]

It will work out.

[Clough]

The written part was a joke. One of the questions was something like:
When you get to a stop sign do you
A) All of the above.
B) Ignore it.
C) Stop.
D) Speed up.

Or,
E) Squeal Tires On Pavement! S.T.O.P.

Couldn't resist! :)

[Wondergirl]

Beth, J doesn't want a needy girlfriend. That's what you are. Stop. Right now. Stop.

Now, think about it. What can you do to act NOT needy around him?

[beth911]

I don't know what I can do. Iv'e just been trying to hide all the tears and stuff when he's around. Iv'e been making it look like I have moved on even though I can't. A lot of people are starting to become my friends now. They say to talk to them in the hallway to make him jellous. How do I know he will talk me again? Or, how do I talk to him again?

[beth911]

Ok, What can I do? What can I do? What can I do? I feel like a little dog begging for bacon.

[Wondergirl]

I'm home and here now. I hope you went to bed.

[beth911]

Ok, now I'm here. I'm really confused. I need to get this over with ASAP. I feel like I am moving on. I really don't want to. In a way though, I think it would be better but it isn't what I want. I said, I would never give up on us being together, even if I wanted to give up. That's what I'm going to do too. I WILL NOT GIVE UP. Right now I feel like I don't care. Give it time though, and it will hit me and I will hurt so bad. Hopefully it won't get that far and I will have him talking to me by Friday. Else, I have to wait an extra 2 weeks because of Christmas break. I won't be able to handle that. OMG. Tell me anything you can that will work. I only have 2 days. Please, please, help. QUICK.

[Wondergirl]

Do you want to be in his life or not?

[kristanp]

Okay just by reading this seems like you are being a bit over clingy to this boy in my experience with men not that I have had many men but from one expierience I'm kind of going through you have to understand that if he doesn't want to talk to you or read your letter or even call you its because he probably needs time to figure out what is going through his mind and what he wants men don't like clingy women one bit unless they are that way to you just kind of have to let this go day by day and see what happens just walk away for a while till he is ready if he is ever ready to talk to you then just sit down and have a conversation in relationships they go both ways not on just what one person wants in life you have to feel that way or else nothing will ever go rite for you not sure if this helps but I learned to do this with my sons father who has a lot of dulision that we are going to get back together and that is never going to happen things didn't work for us and I walked away because I wasn't dealing with his excuse my french but he obviously doesn't get the picture so I'm not trying to referr you as my ex but in ways you kind of are just because if this boy doesn't want to be around you rite now or talk to you then just let it go till he is possibly ready to talk to you I hope this helps if not then I'm sorry I know its hard going through what you are going through but in the end it might have a better outcome and mabey you guys are not meant to be you have to believe in god because no matter what he will always be by your side I believe in him but nothing ever goes my way lol you just have to be paitent I will be here if you need any more opinions hope all works out for you take care

[beth911]

Do you want to be in his life or not?

Of course I do. Now, all of a sudden this other girl is his "BFF." I remember him always saying to me "but I thought we were bff's."

Am I doing the right thing by ignoring him? What am I supposed to do? I need to know BEFORE tomorrow. Else, I'm going to have to go 2 more weeks of misery.