[Chery]

While we live, we learn... negative and positive side of things and that is what helps us grow and become the individuals we eventually like.

As you said before, without all this experience, where would you be now??

Glad we could help and support you to a point where you are getting things done slowly but surely.

BY all means, keep us posted. And know that our thoughts and best wishes remain.

[BiWiccanAndProud]

Hey otherkat! How are things going? Just wondering how your doing ^.^

[otherkat]

I am all right. My car is still having problems and it seems like a never ending battle. I am supposed to get my exhaust by Wednesday. After that I will have no more reason to stay and hope to get out of there shortly after. He has got to know to some extent as to what is going on because the, "oh pity me I'm suicidal" Sean is back and in full swing. I know that sounds heartless, but the whole thing is getting REALLY old. I wanted to leave last weekend so bad, but I could get ahold of the seller of the exhaust until yesterday and by that time he had already shipped it. I ordered this darn thing the 8th of November, but the original package was lost. I have decided that I am just going to try and install it myself. When I do leave I have decided that when he tells me he is going to kill himself I am going to tell him that I sincerely hope that he doesn't, but if he cares about me at all to wait until I leave because the trauma of seeing him kill himself would screw me up in the head bad. I think that has been my fear more than anything. I hope that works. As soon as the deed is done you all will be getting my victory email. ;)
Thank you for your concern.
Hope you had a Happy Thanksgiving!

[otherkat]

You won't believe what happened this weekend... OK maybe you will
I don't even know how it started, but I broke up with him and started packing my . I told him when I broke up with him that the only reason I have been with him was because I was afraid he was going to kill himself. First I put all my dirty clothes in a plastic bag cause that's where most of my work clothes were. He started freaking out and said that he was leaving and going to go get some dope. I thought this would make things easier so I let him go. I followed him out though at a distance and watched him out of the doorway and he took the cap thingy off my tire! It was dark and I said I saw that so he disappeared into the darkness. I hid in the garage so I could make sure he didn't do anything else to my car. He came in the garage and saw me asked me why I was there I told him to make sure he didn't do anything crazy to my car and so I knew what to fix. Than I said man are you trying to kill me and told him to give me the cap thingy back and so he did. I asked what are you doing? And he said he was getting his gun. He started throwing bottles and freaking out. I don't remember how I got him to go back into the house but he did. Oh he went back into the house cause he forgot his cigarettes. Anyway he starts freaking out and told me to get the out. He kicked my trash bag full of clothes and busted the bag open I started trying to pack up more and told him to give me 5 minutes. When I went into the closet he came up behind me and pushed me onto the ground and started shaking me asking me why I was doing this and other similar . He grabbed his gun and closed the door. I thought his gun was in the garage! He started unzipping the case and I fought with him. I begged him not to and he said I deserved to watch him die. When I won over the zipper he fell onto the gun and started crying saying that I was the only person who gave a about him to get him off dope and and that he was sorry for always being an... this type of talk went on for a bit than I told I wouldn't leave and it seemed to make everything all better. I started my period immediately after like within 2 minutes and started cramping up really bad and feeling like I was going to puke. It sucked I stayed up most of the night because I was afraid I was going to wake up to him being dead. He took like half of his bottle of St. John's Wart. I guess it's plan B now. I guess I am going to have to leave when he is not there. OH and some funny is yesterday he was all fine and dandy like nothing happened and he told me to leave him alone for a little bit so that he could find a Christmas present. I checked on him and he was actually on eBay. And the whole time all this was going on Saturday he kept telling me that I was not going to find anyone that loved me as much as him. No... I don't want someone that's obsessed with me. He kept telling me that I am going to get cheated on and lied to. Which is probably true, but at least I will have freedom and I won't feel trapped. I admit that I am scared of that though. He is a good guy when it comes to that . I just kept trying to tell myself that there is more to him to that. I'm scared he threatened to shoot everybody at work. He blamed Carol, Darryl and Kyle for this. Sorry this is a little fragmented. My mind is a little fragmented right now.

[otherkat]

LADIES!! HELP!! I have planned it. I have to leave Friday when nobody is home. As long as he works Friday. I don't know how I should put the note. So far I have
I'm sorry, but I had to so this. Being trapped in a closet with you and your gun was awful and I didn't want that to happen again so I left when you weren't here. You know how I feel about guns. (OK I'm gunafobic I shake when I am around them and I HATE guns) Things were just not working. I don't feel the need to explain, but I am sorry for leaving like this. This was not how I wanted it. I swear on my mothers box (she was cremated) that I NEVER cheated on you. Please don't take this out on those that NOTHING to do with this. (he has threatened to kill/beat up the intern) This was MY decision. Nobody else's. I hope someday you find happiness.
It sounds mean doesn't it? I don't know I've never done this. Please help!

[Chery]

LADIES!!! HELP!!! I have planned it. I have to leave Friday when nobody is home. As long as he works Friday. I don't know how I should put the note. So far I have
I'm sorry, but I had to so this. Being trapped in a closet with you and your gun was awful and I didn't want that to happen again so I left when you weren't here. You know how I feel about guns. (OK I'm gunafobic I shake when I am around them and I HATE guns) Things were just not working. I don't feel the need to explain, but I am sorry for leaving like this. This was not how I wanted it. I swear on my mothers box (she was cremated) that I NEVER cheated on you. Please don't take this out on those that NOTHING to do with this. (he has threatened to kill/beat up the intern) This was MY decision. Nobody else's. I hope someday you find happiness.
It sounds mean doesn't it? I don't know I've never done this. Please help!

What you are doing does NOT sound mean... it sounds not MEAN enough after all he did. He knows about your fear of guns, he threatens you and others, he threatens suicide, and is totally NUTS.

You should make that note short and sweet - goodbye!

Why the heck don't you report what he just did to the police? Does he have to actually beat you up and shoot you for you to wake up and run as fast as you can? Get out of there and don't look back. He is not worth it. Report his butt to the police on your way out of town. END OF STORY!

You know him better than anyone else, do you really think he gives a darn about you or how you feel? NOPE... so why are you still so stupidly caring of his feeling?

Girl, HE THREATENED YOUR LIFE... what's next??

You are way too passive here... that's dangerous!

[otherkat]

He didn't threaten my life, he threatened his own and wanted me to watch him kill himself because it's "my fault!" he never actually even loaded the gun. But it was scary. There is a post above my last one better explaining this. I am leaving. Friday. I wish it was sooner, but his mom only works part-time. I got to go to dinner with his quadreplegic boss, so tata for now.

[Chery]

He still needs to be locked up.. either in a jail or in a mantal hospital.
It is still illegal to force someone into a closet against their will, and with a gun. You cannot be sure he would not have used it on you too - sort of a double-suicide... think about that for a minute.

[BiWiccanAndProud]

I agree with chery!! Get out of there!

[otherkat]

I did it and now he is actively trying to destroy what little life I had.

[BiWiccanAndProud]

If you left how is he trying to destroy your life? Is he following you?

[otherkat]

Well he texted me about 400 times the first weekend. He has made our few friends hate me cause I just bounced out with no warning. I'm in the shelter with a methadone addict. But at least I'm going to VEGAS! I'm going for a while though so I have to get all my work done. Busy Busy.
He is finally getting help and taking Paxil. Day late and a dollar short.

[BiWiccanAndProud]

Lol Well he lost you and it's his own fault. He can't blame you. And technically you DID give him warning... lots of them -.-... so your guy's friends have no reason to hate you. Oh well if they do doesn't sound like they were real friends in the first place. Did you get your dogs taken care of? Or talk to someone about the treatment of his moms horses?

[otherkat]

Sorry I have been in Vegas. No, I haven't. I'm trying not to dwell on the past there. I'm trying to forget about all of that. I am a firm believer in Karma. They will get theirs. I don't like to mettle.

[BiWiccanAndProud]

So you're doing good? I'm glad to hear I was wondering if you would ever post again ^.^. You didn't say if you got your dogs though. I hope you did cause you really seemed to care for them. And you're absolutely right they will get there's. I believe that cruelty to animals or nature is the surest way to earn bad karma cause nature will kick your ask in the end :P. So how close are you to getting your own place? Hope to hear from you soon!

[AnnieMac713]

You need to break away, and stop worrying about him. You need to concentrate on you. If you gain convidence;you'll be a better person, because you only rely on yourself'. It all truly makes sense. I wish you all the best.;)

[otherkat]

I have my own place. No furnature. Just a crate. Lol One of the guys from work is giving me a queen sized bed on Thursday and a TV. So that will be awesome. I think I am going to move back to Vegas if my job ends and we don't get the next one. Living on your own is expensive and I doubt I will be able to afford it if I have to get another job because I am making $15.90 at this job and I doubt my next job will even come close to that. I could put an ad for a roommate, but I think that is just weird. Living with some random person. Thanks all of you for all of your help and support through all of this. Oh and I didn't get my dogs :( I couldn't find a place that allowed them that wasn't like $800 a month. I'm trying not to think about that though.

[BiWiccanAndProud]

*hugs* I'm sorry about your dogs, but it sounds like you are doing good so far! Does your apartment allow pets? Maybe you could somehow still get them? I don't know. But 15.90? Wow you're making way more then me! As soon as I graduate my boyfriend and I want to move into an apartment together. Our combined checks come out to I think 500 600 dollars... hmmm I hope we could pull it off.

Anyway a room mate wouldn't be that bad! Just put out an ad with details on the kind of person and make sure you could deal with them! You maybe could even interview them? Do you have any friends where you live yet? Maybe one of them could move in with you.

[otherkat]

I REALLY don't like the idea of moving in with someone I barely know. The place I am in allows a cat. I am not going to be able to afford this place though if I don't find another well paying job.
I'm sick and I feel like I am going to pass out. They told me to take this medication so I would stop sneezing and I always fall asleep when I take medication. GRRR. The other lady needs to come already I want to go home and take a nap!

[BiWiccanAndProud]

Lol poor kat. What if you take it before a while before work so that you can sleep and still not sneeze when you get to work.

Try making friends at you job you have now and see if any of them needs a place to stay.