[notcoolenough]

I posted here before and people were so helpful... but things have just gotten even worse.

I just lost my full time job over really stupid drmatic stuff that I don't even want to get into. I really liked my job too and I did not deserve to lose it although it is for the best. I didn't get along with my manager among other things.

So I have been searching and searching for a new job and that is really hard on the cape. Especially one to replace my last job as in a job that pays the same as the last one. As I am doing that, I am biting my nails and pulling my hair wondering how the hell I am going to pay my rent at the end of the month.

I am still very very alone and losing my job has made it worse. I feel as though I am better off locked in my rom, you know? Like it is a time I can't even have friends. I feel I need money to have friends. Scared to use gas to visit friends.

The worse part is, after my first very long post... things started loking up. I was saving some money. I had set plans on moving to New York with my long distant/long time/only friend in march, with the ending of my current lease. I was paying my bills. Things were fine...

Now I don't even know if I can afford to stay here until march let alone move to NY in march. I am scared of going homeless again and also losing my beloved pet rats. I am just really really scared. I have gone through situations like this many many times before and I end up comething through. And it sucks... but I think this is different. A little worse because I have a bit more to lose.

I collect SS/Disability for my mental disabilities (major depression, bipolar, insomnia, anxiety etc) but it is just a little short of paying the bills/rent. I am really scared and I think the worse thing. The thing that absolutely makes this 100%... is I have NO ONE

I don't have any one to call over with ice cream and just sit with me to watch a movie. No company. I am going through this alone. I have done all that I can and I am not sure how my rommates are dealing with this. They are older. The only thing I haven't tried yet is the unemployment office. I think we have one here somewhere... do they help in these situations? Is their some place that I can go to for help in finding a job aside from craigslist, want ads, and the news paper?

I just thought of something else actually. My past job was at a dogie daycare and I have mucho experience in sitting pets etc. I suppose I can put up an ad/web site advertising my services. I hardly think it will be successful.. from past experiences... but it is worth a shot.

I honestly don't think I deserve this but nice guys really do sem to finish last.

Wow. I am so glad I got all this off my chest. Thanks to anyone who read this. Any advice would be wonderful... or even a 'good luck'. Thanks :)

[templelane]

Argh, sorry everythings gone b*****s

I have an idea for the dogwalking/sitting, have you tried leaflets through doors as well yet?

Have you tried applying for a tempory job just to keep you going until you get something better even if it is rubbish. Have no idea what your area is like for jobs but you could try putting your CV into shops and restaurants. Have you tried being a binman? I have a few friends that say it's good fun, lots of exercise and you get outside.

You should try a temp agency as well then you join them and they do most of the legwork for you. You get called up with no notice but you have car so it'll be all right to get to places. Also once you've got your foot in the door you end up staying longer than the couple of days they initially ask for. You can join even if they don't have current positions. It also adds random experience onto your CV. I couldn't get a job for love nor money until I joined one of these.

You should think outside of jobs you would usually apply for. Have you put your CV in many places? What does it look like? So many people get turned down because of silly mistakes on them.

Anyway that's my random thoughts on jobseeking. Good luck to you!
Hope this helps on some level

[notcoolenough]

Thanks for your advice. I haven't even found an places hiring in which I qualify for. Cape Cod is probably the worse place to find a job in if you are young. I was so happy to be able to get the hell out of here in 6 months. But I will keep loking and I will take anything as long as it pays right now