[emopunk7]

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[Geoffersonairplane]

Thank you :)

Thats the thing..
Brief of my story
I was a virgin when i met him at 19. Im 28 now. Been married for 3.
In some way i feel i need to experience life and learn more about myself. On the other hand im also scared of be alone....
Im also scared ill regret leaving him, then again i may not!

can u understand why im so confused

Maybe its important to remember that if you were meant to be together forever then it will be this way regardless of what happens. Fate plays its part in life in mysterious ways (in my opinion).

I do agree with others that communication is very important but of course you know that.

I watched this great film the other day, you may have seen it. Its called the Butterfly Effect. This guy who has blackouts as a kid grows up not remembering painful experiences of his childhood. He is encouraged to write a journal during his childhood by his therapist. When he grow up, he finds a way of traveling back in time through reading his journals and then fills in the gaps and attempts to change the past. You know what I liked about the film?

It is how small choices that we make in life can alter drastically the outcome of our situation, of our lives. It really had a powerful message to convey I believe about how precious decision making is in life and that as an adult, we must live with the outcome of the decisions we make, good or bad. This obviously doesn't just speak for relationship decisions, but decisions/choices on a huge scale throughout our lives.

In fact, it is what makes life so very interesting. What if I do it this way? what if I go that way? Am I in control or is something controlling me? Is it fate? Or is it just some random process?

Anyway, I thought that this would in some way relate to how you are feeling at the moment in terms of the confusion of your situation. My emphasis is on choices/decisions and the power to make them and the strength to deal with the consequences.

[emopunk7]

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[Sdjosh]

Who knows if a break is good or not.

On the surface I would say a break is a bad thing. You loose trust... you are hurt... feel rejected... alone... quesiton yourself worth. So many different things run through your head. You wonder about what they are doing. If they still love you... if they are dating. You want to fight to get back what you had.

But down below its not really that simple an answer to give. Each person is traveling through this world on his own path. We all have this battle in ourselves... with ourselves. We all at one point loose our way. We question our paths... our purpose... goals... self worth. We in essance have an internal struggle with ourselves.

This effects our relationships. It happens sometimes that we come to depend on our partner... or blame them... hurt them... for the problems that we face inside. For the past.

Sometimes the only way to move forward is to take a step back. To take a hard look at yourself and work on you without the commitments of a relationship. It sucks... but that's the reality.