[itwillbewonderful]

Please help me this is my last hope for someone to help me.
Im 13 and well I'm having a few problems at the moment.
I've had some school issues but its an illness why I can't go and now I'm being home-schooled.
Since I've been having the problems my mom and everything else around me has been going sooooo wrong.
I can't go out in public because I will have panic attacks thinking people are laughing at me.
The thing is there's this like voice in my head that tells me I'm ugly, fat, stupid, worthless and that people hate me and are laughing about me. Its awful and no one believes me.
My mom is being awful saying I'm playing her and being mean to me for having opinions. She tells me people are watching and looking and staring at me when we are out and she has a tendency to lie about things and she acts like a teenager. A few months back she invited this boy who works up the stables (where I used to go she still goes) to stay round out house most saturdays. They never slept in the same bed or anything but he stayed in her bed and I was in the next room. Even after I told her it made me extremely nervous and weird to have him in the house she still let him. Also a few months back she had a party for the people up the stables and they are all underage and she let them have alcohol and even bought it with cigarettes. Im not the most skinny person ever but not the size of a bus either and she keeps looking at my stomach and tells me I can't eat things normal people my age live on. Im so confused why does she treat me this way? Is it right? I can't talk to anyone else because they never believe me and I just want some answers.

[laceylush]

You aren't worthless, there must be a more professional body you can call, like childline or something. People are not staring at you, I think that at the moment you have such a low opinion of yourself, you feel like the whole world is against you (including your mother). Do you have any brothers or sisters? Maybe another member of the family, aunt or uncle you can turn to? Hang on in there, people do care, including mom.

[Megg]

Hi there. I'm not sure about everything your going through, but I have been abused in my past. I may be 21 and you 13 but we both deserve love and respect. You mom isn't helping your situation and I am sorry to hear that a parent could be so cold to their own blood. You need to face your fear and go outside to a nearby school and talk to someone in charge about your problem. There are laws. Laws to protect you and keep you safe. You hear these voices just as I still do. I always am fighting myself over if I am good enough or if I'm smart or pretty or whatever. These thoughts are put there because of the kind of life your mom is giving you. Its not a life. Its making you hurt and you need to like I said go to someone you think would help. A school, a church or even call 911. You need to tell yourself this isn't your fault. ITS NOT! Some parents are mean. Its unfair and it hurts, but you need to make the steps to freedoom. Tell yourself you are special and worthy and you deserve to be in a home filled with love. YOU ARE SPECIAL, UNIQUE AND A MASTERPIECE. GOD Doesn't MAKE UGLY PPL. HE MADE YOU IN HIS IMAGE. You're a BEAUTY AND YOU WILL OVERCOME THIS. ASK GOD FOR Strength. GO GET HELP RIGHT NOW AS WE SPEAK!! I wish you luck... luck luck luck!! Let me know how it goes! Forget about mom and what she may do if you leave. Go to a school. She can't hurt you ANYMORE!

[WorthlessIdiot]

Darling,
I have had tons of problems like yours. I know how it feels to think I'm ugly, stupid, fat, worthless... but then I realized I just had to look around, to see this amazing world and all the amazing people I know. They may not even love me... but I'm a person, just like them. Why would God make me better or worse? God doesn't make mistakes... and He made you. You're perfect in His eyes with every flaw you think you have' just like you're perfect in mine. A human can't be worthless. We do so many things. We were born to live lives that serve God. If you don't know what your purpose is, that's why; you haven't asked God for help.
I know you probably don't know God. But I'm 14 and last year I didn't either. I needed someone to help me. If you want to get better, this is ALL YOU HAVE TO DO: go to a church, find a youth group, and talk to the leader. Just dump out your heart. I promise she can help you.
If all else fails, talk to me. I love you and you are beautiful. Based on what you wrote, you are a BEAUTIFUL person... it doesn't matter what haters say(;
You are flawless.
<3 Siku the bipolar polar bear :P