We are okay for now but there's something else.
So I decided not to take a break from my relationship with my boyfriend kus we talked about it and we decided that we need each other especially at this time.:)
But...
I have another problem...
Well My ex-boyfriend broke up with me 3 months before I met my current boyfriend and I became emotionally unstable.
I felt so alone and blamed myself for the things that went wrong in the relationship.
My ex and I had a lot of problems, we argued too much.
Most were my own fault.
The thing is I really don't know if I am completely over my ex boyfriend.
My ex and I still continued to talk after he broke up with me but argued like crazy; over the smallest things and the stupidest things.
Recently; he found out about my NEW boyfriend and acted very hyper and really happy for me but I feel like I don't want him to be happy for me.
During one of our online conversations; he says he wants me to hate him so I can concentrate on my NEW boyfriend.
So he decides to tell me that he cheated on me when we were together.
So he blocks me from him Instant Messenger
Then a few days ago; I received an email from him, clarifying the words he said.
He says that he didn't cheat on me and that he wouldn't don't that to me.
... And yet; Im confused about the whole thing.
In the last online conversation before he decided to block me; he said that if he could go back in time that he would still want to be with me...
... That completely threw me off because I still had some sort of feelings for him.
Then today my current Boyfriend asks me if my ex was to say that he wanted me back, if I would leave my current Boyfriend for my ex.
I hesitated but I think I lied.
Idk what to do.
Im not over my ex apparently
I don't want to lose my current boyfriend kus I do love him
But I can't love 2 people...
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