[OnlyOnex]

I dated my boyfriend for a year &1/2 and he has been the only guy I have ever been in love with. I gave him everything, and I lost my virginity to him. He was the greatest person to ever come into my life and we were happy for a year and 3 months.. But then we started to argue a lot, we had fights all the time. About a lot of different things. And I was young and very emotional, and I would cry and yell and just be in horrible moods, that I could not control. Well one day I was working and stressed out about us, and I saw this guy looking at me, I though to myself he's cute then just looked away, and didn't think anything of it, because I didn't care. When I came home that day I had a message from him on my myspace that said "having fun at work". I thought it was weird how he found me, but later I found it because I knew people he friends with. But anyway we just started talking and being friendly to each other. It being nothing being that I had my boyfriend and he had a long term relationship that he was in at the time as well. So, I just liked talking and being friends with him... Meanwhile me and my boyfriend kept fighting, and the fights just kept getting to me more and more over time. I got so overwhelmed that I just couldn't take having my head pounding and feeling squished in a box anymore, I had to get out. So I broke up with him. :(.and me and the other guy started talking more and more, and we made a date. My ex was crying for me back. But, I was very upset with him, and confused.
So, I started to spend more time with this guy, and we started dating.
every night my ex would call me, and I would not answer because I felt like complete crap and was just confused about him, I didn't know what I was doing.
He would leave messages crying and telling me how I w=meant everything to him and how he loved me more than anything in the world..

Being in a relationship with this guy,his name was patrick,was blinding me from what was right, and that was joel(ex).
I was trapped inside a hell hole, and I was only looking at what was trapping me (this guy)

after about a month this guy was an , I had heard he was cheating on me from 2 of my friends, and I could never get the truth from him.. because he would just say "noo" and change the subject.. I went with what my friends were telling me and how he was acting toward the situation and me.
so I brokeup with him.
after we broke up all I could do was be upset and still blinded by everything that was happening and that had happened.
All of the wars of fighting that I had with joel is what made me start to loose feeling for him before I broke up with him. I couldn't stand being upset constantly.
So after I had broke up with patrick I still didn't want the relationship.


Now.
Joel is over me, and karma has come back on me.
And I'm now the one who is sitting here crying,and telling him how much I love him and want to be with him.
Because having everything that was blocking me from seeing what I did, is gone and cleared up now I see what I should've done.
And I am in nothing but a pool of remorse and regret.
And kick myself in the a** everyday day for it.

I can't believe what I did, how I just left him there with nothing, heartbroken and wanting nothing but to be in my arms.
Feeling the way I do at this exact moment in time.
All I want to do is be there in his arms again.
And to just fix everything I can, do anything that I can do.


I know in my heart that I will never do what I did, now that I see what I did.
I've learned from this, this has been one of the biggest learning expierences of my life.
So, I want more than anything to show him that I want to be with him and only him, and that I never on my life want to hurt him again.
I just want to have that last and only chance I need to show him that, and have him gain my trust again.

I've read so many things about just giving it time, and everything.
And I want to do that.. I just want to ask for my last chance and explain everything to him after a little while longer.. giving him his space
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Please help me.. </3

[sypher373]

To be honest, there isn't much you can do to "gain" his trust back. It is exactly that his trust.

Though I can't speak from experience, I would suggest that giving him the space that he needs is the best way to handle it. You must understand how you broke his heart, and how he was emotionally crippled, and you wouldn't answer the phone. I'm sure that this isn't what you want to hear, but Im hoping I can give you the best advice, not the easiest.

If you have told him how you feel, that is about all you can do. There is nothing that will "bring him back" but his own free will. Give him the time and space that he needs to sort things out on his own, but be prepared to walk away if he chooses to not come back...

[laura hamilton]

Hang in there I just broke up with my boyfriend of three years and I'm feeling bloody hurt right now and want him to turn round and say he doesn't want this to end but he never will.

Tell him how you feel make it clear and the rest is up to him.
I know it hurts because you just want him to say OK, were fine, lets give it another go.

Yep this is LOVE!

Love is a B***H

Xx