[jodiann]

OK, my story is pretty long.but here goes. I'm 16 and the guy I love.. well the guy I used to go out with is 21. Now we met each other and well it was good. He was with his girlfriend but they never spoke they were basically non existent... however after 3 months of going out with him he told me he had not broken up with her.which by then I thought he did. I was understnading and stuff and said OK. Anyway. Things were OK they were good. But I knew he sumwhat styul had feelings for his ex.

Anyway while we were going out we got realli close then we started loving each other. As in for real. But I gues even though everyone thinks I'm pretty, I didn't (at the time) and he's pretty handsome too.. so I kept thinkng I never luked good enuff to be with him.so out of the blue on e day I decided to break up with him. Not realli explaining y. but then that same evening I apologised and we got bak to gether. He said he was realli hurt though. I mean he showed me he luved me cause his mother kept saying how he kept tlkin about me and he does BMXin' and he spray painted ma name all over his stunt ride. And stuff like that. Anyway we got bak together. But then like 2 weeks later I broke up with him again.. I don't even rememebr y. and to be honest we were fine. Then like I thought it was OK but then about 3 weeks later I found out he cheated one me with a girl.. he was with her for like 1 week. When I asked him he denyed it but then.. he finally siad it was because I made him unsure.. but I styl can't forgive him for cheating on me. Eventually we broke up again.. I did the breaking up. He creid and stuf.. but I ignored it. Then I duno like 1 onth later we got bak together.. cause he begged.. he loves me and everone tells me he does.. but honestly to me.. he flirts a lot.. but he says its my mind and that I'm being paranoid...

Well long and short of it is that 1 month later I styl kept thinking about he cheated on me and he said I onli did it cause I felt emotionally hurt.. with me breaking up with him for no reason and he loves me a lot.. welln now we came to a connclusionthat we need to get our heads together... I elised I kind of became paranoid when I saw him in a room with one of my gf's the other day.. I thought they were going to kiss.. but.. later I realised it was my mind..
I keep thinking he's just saying he loves me but he doesn't..
Pple keep saying if he didn't love me.. he wudnt call me everyday to tel me he loves me(which he styl does by the wya).. and he's a pretty good luking guy.. but I am studying ot be a doctor.. and it never came up but I'm thinking mabey he just wants my money when I become a doctor...

Anyway I told h him to come out of my life a while ago.. and he keeps saying
He doesn't know wats wrong with me cuase he lvoes me.. but styl .

O and one o the times we broke up.. wihtin a space of 3 days.. he had sex with a girl.. kinda like a fling.. and I'm wondering if you love someone.. wud you do that... I don't know.. I need help...
He says he loves me.. he styl says it..
But.. I don't know.. isit me.. plus he spoke about a futur togethet.. he always does.. ad he does crazy things for me.but I'm thinking he's just trying tto prove a point

And honestyl though my mind sying that I should just forget about him.. a small voice saying it s meant to b.. but mabey I'm being stupid.. he says he's been with lots o girls.. but he knows we are meant to b.. and despite the things I've done he keeps saying all the bad and all the ogg... he's willing to try.. but what if he's trying ot prove a point

I duno.. but when I thnk about our relationship I onli think about the bad.. I barely rememebr it being good.. tho he sees it as being good..

What should I do..

[ceriphante]

From a guy perspective..
First thing to do is never talk to him again.. he is a disrespectful loser even if he acts otherwise.. his behaviour towards you was quite plainly disrespectful and you let him get away it, so deep down he's probably laughing at you behind your back, if you ever question him on this he will probably be quite angry and silly about it..

A few things I learnt in my time;
Never let someone make you have 2nd place, be either first or unavailable to them,
Don't let someone cheat on you you deserve better,
And yeah someone that already has a partner trying to hookup with you that's not love that's them using two people for whatever their reasons are..

Good luck, hope this was a useful insight for you