[coldpunja]

I am 25 years old virgin unmarried male. I never get satisfaction from masturbation from last 1-2 years except 2-3 times. I do enjoy masturbation but satisfaction goes away within few minutes and body craves for sex a lot. That's really stressing me out. I can't control my lust. I get nervous with peoples because of my past experiences. Men think I am a gay and women think that I am too horny. Actually I am not even interested in those peoples but my body language tells different story. I am always over cautious about it and that's make it even worse.

My mind always filled up with lots of doubts. I always presume that person next to me is thinking either I am a gay (men) or I am too horny (women). Whenever I look at some women I fear that she is thinking that I am staring at her breast/hips because very few peoples can read my eyes and mostly they get it wrong. I really don't know why I feel guilty for the things which I never did, on contrary I used to enjoy staring at boobs without ever getting caught every time before 4-5 years but nowadays everything seems to be getting wrong. I am really tensed.

PS - I am not a gay neither am I a playboy interested in *******ing every other female.

I do get tense when looking at boobs//hip because of past experiences but that's not sexual attraction it's just anxiety and fear but people don't understand me and always come to instant conclusion.

Here are few incidents happened to me.

1.teacher was writing on blackboard and I was reading lines at bottom right. Next day I heard teacher calling me a gay to another teacher

2. I had a great buddy when I was studying networking. Some of the classmates were jealous of our friendship and they started calling us gay. It was just a casual teasing in the beginning but it got getting worse.

3.I was sitting behind lady in a show and her bareback didn't allowed me to enjoy the show. She used to stare at me angrily without any reason. In fact I was watching the show not her bare back.

4.Two girls at my class used to tease each other that oh I am looking at her. I am having craze for her n blah blah blah which used to upset me because I never stared at her.

5.One of my friend tried to touch my chest and hips because they are little over sized being weighted at 104 kg. Few other experiences as such where peoples tried to touch my chest and hips which I don't like at all. I am trying to get rid of excess fat from chest and hips

6.Interestingly whenever I stare at girls because I am sexually aroused by their attractive figure they hardly doubt about me.

7.I used to compare my body with others because of means comment on my penis size, over sized chest and hips but I hardly look at them just because I am sexually aroused.

Sorry for my poor English.

[CravenMorhead]

I am not entirely sure I know what you're asking. My first blush is to calm down and don't worry about those incidents. Done is done and right now it is about continuing on. I would see if you could get a little counselling I think that might do you a world of good. More so for the anxiety then the large amounts of lust.

As for what other people are thinking, that's hard to guess but you're always going to the worst possible or at least a certain reaction. The thing is, they're not thinking that. Well dependent on what you're doing. If you eyes don't leave their boobs through the entire exchange then they'll have thoughts similar to that you think, but as long as you control yourself, you should be fine. That is to say to look people in the face or not at their breasts/hips/whatnot.

Trust me that many men are in your situation and most just learn self-control. Sometimes after a harsh lesson or two.