[lou3344]

Why are my emoutins over the top?
Nearly every single day I get a depressed kind of feeling where I feel such an urge to hurt myself to get rid of this horrible feeling. I feel very wrestles during this time. I don't think I'm depressed as a few minutes-hours later my mood has totally changed for example today I woke up feeling nothing (empty) After half an hour I became very happy then remembered that everyone leaves you at some point in your life so I was literally cry over people deserting me . Whilst I was crying I started laughing, crying, laughing, crying again, then felt numb and now I don't really know what I'm feeling but its different again. My second concern is that nearly every single day I get a depressed kind of feeling where I feel such an urge to hurt myself to get rid of this horrible feeling. I feel very wrestles during this time. I don't think I'm depressed as a few minutes-hours later my mood has totally changed for example today I woke up feeling nothing (empty) After half an hour I became very happy then remembered that everyone leaves you at some point in your life so I was literally cry over people deserting me (I do think that this was linked to the counsellor thing) whilst I was crying I started laughing, crying, laughing, crying again, then felt numb and now I don't really know what I'm feeling but its different again.

[JudyKayTee]

Your spelling makes me think you are not in the US. Are you someplace where you can get professional counseling?

[lou3344]

We have a counsellor at our college but in a week it's the end of term where we have our summer holidays so it will be pointless as when September comes she will have forgotten. BTW I'm from England I just have really bad spelling.

[Stella_Aurea]

No matter what you do, please do not give in to hurting yourself. Find other ways to makes yourself feel better. Take a walk, take a long, hot shower. It's okay to cry. Whatever you're going through, it's just a difficult time and you're going to be emotional. If you feel like you need help, consult a professional or someone you can trust that can help you. But don't make a stupid decision to hurt yourself, K? :)

[joypulv]

'She will have forgotten?' I highly doubt it. I think you are attached to her, as is good for being able to open up your feelings. Be sure to take the entire last session of the year talking about seeing her again in the fall. She may have suggestions for a referral for the summer. I think you are depressed, but not every minute; just mood swings. That's to be expected when your therapist is going to be unavailable.