[Marc81]

I'm really at a loss... about 6 years ago I met the mother of my kid it was honestly a very deep relationship and could go on for days on how good things were for a long time... but then we decided to go back to school and she got pregnant and the recession went down and school didn't panout so things slowly spiraled being broke for years (I should prob say that I'm also an injured where my work is restricted) dealing with a baby plus her other 2 kids from before we never got to go out and I basically felt like a failure but even when things were going bad we still had good moments but my ex has some serious attachment issues and is very spiteful eventually we obviously split I left but still helped her out with what I could and paid support she tried for almost a year to get me back and we were both still broke and I landed an amazing job shortly after we got back together where we had to move but because of her issues with control she didn't want to move which infuriated me because she's moved serval times before so I left again and again she tried to get me back then she met someone but clearly still wanted me back we did I won her back but then we split again and she went back to him then he went to jail and she waited for him which I can't express how angry this made me I snapped I never physically did anything but anything bad you could say I did... now this is where is really gets weird every time I try to move on she would do something to get me to stay close to her.. she knows me and vise versa... so she ends up leaving the guy recently I thought that maybe we could start over from scratch now my ex is into mind games but because I understand her so well never really bothered me (we could have conversation without saying a word it was quite odd actually) so she offers me sex and says its sex but we start talking for hours like we did before etc etc and I became a little hopeful I never wanted to raise my kid in a broken home and value my family... so after I drop my son off she wants to have supper and have sex later but at some point she says "we never getting back together I want to date someone else" so I thought if it was sex why do all this family stuff etc etc which finally leads me to my prob I told her to leave me alone but she finds stupid reasons to text me and pretend like its for the kid it's like she won't let me move on and I have to see her almost every week she knows how to get to me and when I think I'm going to be OK she'll try to talk and MSG me and dig at me she's so angry from things I said after the break up but I know so many of our proba from before are fixed but she's very unstable mentally (never physical messed in the head) it gets to me where I have no confidence in myself and I'm at a loss I'm sorry for the long post but I wanted to really say where I'm at And how much of a sucker I feel like