[ZeroPointZero]

You didn't write your first post or any afterwards?

Why, they are not that great. I have very little interest to write more than that.

[Wondergirl]

You did an outstanding job!

[ZeroPointZero]

You did an outstanding job!

Ok great, now what? I still have little desire to do anything with it. Like I said I have little imagination. I can't write for a newspaper or magazine, I will more than likely say something that will get me into legal trouble, fired, or worse. I definitely would not find these jobs appealing in any way. Also, how do you mean outstanding? My posts are barely coherent, they have no structure, it's just a rambling mess.

[Wondergirl]

Oh, for pete's sake I complimented you. Say thank you!

There's a comma splice here and there and some missing punctuation, but the post is easily understandable. You use adult (mature) language and phrasing with college-level words. I'm guessing you are a good student.

Is there anything you LIKE to do?

[ZeroPointZero]

Oh, for pete's sake I complimented you. Say thank you!

There's a comma splice here and there and some missing punctuation, but the post is easily understandable. You use adult (mature) language and phrasing with college-level words. I'm guessing you are a good student.

Is there anything you LIKE to do?

Actually, before the incident that got me kicked out of the army, I was on the verge of getting kicked out for very poor grades.

Thank you, for the compliment, but I still don't think I will ever be a writer.

I have no idea what I like to do. I just know what I don't like, and what I do to waste my time.

[dontknownuthin]

I think you're trying to figure out the solutions to every problem at once. You only need to fix one to start - your depression. Once you deal with that, you'll think more clearly and will be able to figure out what the next step is. Did you know that your negative thinking is a part of clinical depression? Not being able to handle your social world, find motivation or do what you want to do? That's all part of depression. It's a chemical imbalance in your brain.

It can be fixed, and then you will make better decisions, see hope, find motivation. It really is that simple. Treating depression won't change your life circumstances but it will enable you to change them and will make you want to change them. Isn't it worth trying at least? I mean, one appointment with a psychiatrist and you can get on medication - it's not so hard. A month or so down the line, everything will look and feel better to you. Another month after that, you'll feel like making some changes.

Don't apologize for posting on this site - but hold yourself accountable. You posted what you really feel - you needed an anonymous forum to feel safe doing that. You really do want help. So, just cooperate a little bit - get on some meds. Seriously - it's not a big deal. If you had an infection in your toe, you'd take antibiotics, right? Be an adult - be mature. You're not well, and you need to get well. So do what it takes to get well. What you have can be cured, then you move on. Not treating depression is like not treating strep and sitting home saying, "yeah, that's how I am - my throat hurts, can't swallow, makes me misearable. I'm contagious so I can't see anyone - I'm losing my family and friends. I'll probably loose my job. But hey, that's how I am." How ridiculous! You would go get an antibiotic!