[valgal]

I was sexualy abused as a child, and now as a teenager, I am afraid it's going to happen again. It wasn't just once that it happened and it wasn't from just one guy. After it happened the first time, I had a feeling it was going to happen again, and it did and I'm having the same feeling now. I have not told any adults any thing about any of this and my parents absoloutly CAN'T find out about this. Does anyone know what I should do because I feel like I should talk to someone.

[letmetellu]

Look in the phone book for a Rape Crisis Center if there is not one listed there is a national Rape Crisis hot line, call either one of these offices and they will set you up with a counselor. Every thing will be strictly confidential. These are free services to you. I volunteered at one for thirty years and I know that they can help you if you will let them.

[JasmineMof09]

I think mybe you should tella close friend or go to a consuler that dosetn tell your paretns stuff. I know how you feel I was sexually abuse since I was five until like a couple months ago. I haven't tell no one either. I just ignore the people I think are a threat. Try doing that.

[barelyhopeless]

At the age of four a foster child was the first, at the age of eight a cousin was the next, and it goes on and on. I thought I was the only one who experienced things such as this. I do have a child and was at the wrong place at the wrong time and then we jump forward to 4 years ago when I was medicated for depression and suicidal thoughts and I was sleeping when my friend's boyfriend woke me up in a way I would rather not talk about. Sometimes I'm angry, sometimes I'm sad, sometimes I just don't know what to do. Sometimes I think I must have done something, sometimes I think I deserved it, sometimes I wonder why I just felt uncapable of doing anything, I am stronger than most women but when I am put in a situation, I am weak and scared to death. I just don't know what to do. These thoughts never go away, I just hide them and not very well all of the time. I am married but, I can't change clothes in front of my husband or get naked. I can't take a bath with him and he gets upset with me if I sleep in my blue jeans. I feel safe with him but at the same time I feel so terrible. He doesn't understand on why I can't walk around naked in the bedroom with the door locked or why I lock the bathroom door. I use to be worse, he has helped me a lot. He does know some things because we talked about it but, he still doesn't understand.