OK - a couple of issues here. First, this girl is toxic for you. She's toying with your emotions. This is what we used to call "keeping a boy on the line" when I was young. A girl would try to keep a guy interested, while she shopped for someone she wanted more. Then she'd break up with the first guy, and usually, repeat the process with the new guy. Guys do this too. This girl is playing the field and doesn't have the maturity to be committed to you, nor to even be clear and honest and say, "I don't want to be tied to you - I want to see who else might be out there for me to date". That's what she wants, but she wants to keep you, too. If you are OK with dating this girl while she also dates other boys, fine. It sounds like you're not, so break up with her and move on. Don't be mad at her - you are both new to this dating thing, and it's not easy to even know our own feelings. Just remain friendly but break up.
The other issue is your anger. Why would you hit some other unsuspecting guy in the mouth if your girlfriend gave them the impression she is free to date them? It's not the guy's fault. You will date girls who have prior boyfriends - would it be appropriate for those guys to come hit YOU in the mouth? Of course not. So, no retribution. Break up with her, and let her date who she wants, and you date who you want, and just keep it friendly and peaceful.
As for your actions on the field when you were angry, very unsportsman like. You need to keep a cool head on the playing field and be honorable in the game.
I have a close friend who is 50 now. He's been in a wheelchair since he was 16. He was a rugby player. An angry hothead took a cheap shot at my friend which resulted in a broken neck. My friend is a quadrapalegic. He has never married, never had children, has to have an aid 24 hours a day. His parents lives were changed forever. His brother's lives and world changed forever in that moment. All because another athlete brought his personal anger onto the field. And the guy who did this, his life was ruined by the guilt. He has never gotten over what he did - it's been over 30 years and he's still devastated.
I would recommend you get some help with managing anger, and also get some perspective on dating. If you are dating a girl and she's not on the same page with you on how committed and exclusive you're going to be, then break up with her and move on. That's the point of dating. You can skip all the drama if you know it will be disappointing, because she's not lived up to your hopes and expectations and it's a big letdown, but it's not the end of the world. There are other girls, and when the time is right you'll meet the right one. That rarely happens in high school.
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