[sammy963]

I know this girl for 3 years now we are in the classes in college and last year I told her I really care about her and I want to be with her, she said she wasn’t sure and wanted to think about so time went by we were spending so much time together getting so close and really clicking which other and I showed her with all my heart that I really care about her and that I want to be with her then I find out that she already has a boyfriend so it broke my heart and I told her I can’t be friends with her or even talk to her because I carried about her so much I can’t handle seeing her with someone els but she started crying and she said she cares about me and want me to be in her life as a friend so were distanced for while then got close again than I saw her with him one day and I just couldn’t handle it I told her off she cried but this time I couldn’t go back I even moved out of the student hostel we were in and she knew it was because of her, when we came back this year from summer at the start we were still distanced than she started to get close to me again and one day she told my close friend do I talk about her do I think about her and how do I feel about her then my friend got angry and told her to leave me alone and not to go there again because because of her I was so depressed last year I nearly dropped out of college so she started crying and told him she think she made a mistake about me even thou she is still with that guy. I see her every day in classes she is always close to me hugs me hold my hand and arm when she stands beside me everyone says to me we are the best couple ever just because of the way she acts around me but we were never together and she never acts like that with anyone els, she told me she trust me and caries about me even thou I told her I don’t trust her anymore. She gets angry and jealous when I am with other girls or talking about other girls she even said it to me once. I loved her with all of heart I really thought I was going to spend my life with her but she broke me soooo bad I don’t think I will ever love any one again but I still care about her and I don’t know what is going on she told my friend she is confused about me but what does that mean? What should I do? I don’t trust her, I am afraid I want to be with her but at the same time I feel like she doesn’t deserve me and I can’t forgive her for what she put me through but at the same time when I am around her I have never been happier. PLEASE SOMEOE HELP ME TELL ME AM I GOING BACK INTO A DARK ROAD, DOES SHE REALLY CARE ABOUT ME OR JUST PLAYING AROUND OR JUST WANT MY ATTENTION
THANK YOU