[Toadstoolpunish]

Im 23 and I've always had problems being social for as long as I can remember.. Around close friends I'm sometimes quite but I'm usually not social at all at parties or bars.. I didn't think it was that bad until I went to a party and was told by my friend that I was acting weird and the few people I did talk to they looked at me like I was odd and awkward.. So I've finally accepted that people my age think I'm weird and I lack social skills.. I just recently went to a party and a bar after that and I was nervous but thought I would try it out again.. Well I just stood there with a straight face not saying much and I noticed some guys were talking about me saying that I was weird but that didn't bug me.. And at the bar I sat down and just watched everyone doing their thing.. But I felt empty like an odd feeling like I was different from all these people.. It just made sense that I will always give off that weird , awkward, worried face, stiff,Creepy vibe off to everyone Im around.. What bugged me the most was that a guy I knew from high school was there that night and he told me that I should let loose and as he was saying bye to everyone he told me to stop being a dildo.. And it bugged me because my social problem is obvious and I was always told it's only in my head but no people pick up on it of your quite that's when they start judging.. Even when I try to let loose people just don't get me and all I can come up with is that I lack any real social skills and that I'm not considered " cool".. It's just frustrating to be seen in that light and my negative self conscious thoughts and lack of self esteem doesn't help much. Im missing out on being a young adult. Any advice? Or has anyone been able to break these type of issues if they had them ? I'd really appreciate your answers..

[Toadstoolpunish]

Im 23 and I've always had problems being social for as long as I can remember.. Around close friends I'm sometimes quite but I'm usually not social at all at parties or bars.. I didn't think it was that bad until I went to a party and was told by my friend that I was acting weird and the few people I did talk to they looked at me like I was odd and awkward.. So I've finally accepted that people my age think I'm weird and I lack social skills.. I just recently went to a party and a bar after that and I was nervous but thought I would try it out again.. Well I just stood there with a straight face not saying much and I noticed some guys were talking about me saying that I was weird but that didn't bug me.. And at the bar I sat down and just watched everyone doing their thing.. But I felt empty like an odd feeling like I was different from all these people.. It just made sense that I will always give off that weird , awkward, worried face, stiff,Creepy vibe off to everyone Im around.. What bugged me the most was that a guy I knew from high school was there that night and he told me that I should let loose and as he was saying bye to everyone he told me to stop being a dildo.. And it bugged me because my social problem is obvious and I was always told it's only in my head but no people pick up on it of your quite that's when they start judging.. Even when I try to let loose people just don't get me and all I can come up with is that I lack any real social skills and that I'm not considered " cool".. It's just frustrating to be seen in that light and my negative self conscious thoughts and lack of self esteem doesn't help much. Im missing out on being a young adult. Any advice? Or has anyone been able to break these type of issues if they had them ? I'd really appreciate your answers..