[thugangel]

I'm sooo in love with my coworker whose also my best friend. She's sooo beautiful and sexy. One day I told her I was attracted to her about 4 yrs ago n 1 day she approached me saying she felt the same way. But she had a boyfriend. It bothered me somewhat but not as much because he lives out of the country while she was here with me. Long story short, we were together everyday, having fun, passionate love making... It was hot!! Omg! But then later she was saying her family wouldn't accept her if she chose to be with a female. We talked about it and we always stop talking to each other. At times she says she's sorry for hurting me but sorry doesn't help. Now she tells me she's getting married! What!! I was soooooo pissed! She broke my heart! She ask me would I come to her wedding and I told her no. I don't want to see someone else kissing the girl I'm in love with... This hurts soooo much. I try to avoid her as much as possible, talk to her less, but at times I catch myself texting her "I love u" or "I miss u". To keep myself busy I started to workout at the gym to relieve some stress. But still think about her. She's the first thing I think about in the morning and the last before I sleep. I see her everyday and it feels sooo weird, I'm soooo pissed with her and she knows it. I try not to show her but she can see it on my face all the time. I can't believe this. And then every blue moon she comes to me and kiss me and touches me... I don't know what to do??