[Tatami]

The title says it all, and I've read some articles here about the same subject but my breaking-up wasn't recently at all. (I'm sorry my english is not my native language)

I broke up with him, almost 3 years ago. While I'm typing this I feel even more bad because of the long time that has passed already, and I feel as bad as I did in the beginning...

I have a lovely boyfriend now and a good job, lovely parents etc, nothing to complain about, I'm not in touch with my ex anymore. I broke off all contact.
But every morning when I wake up I think about my ex, and the habits we had. Every time I do something we did together I think about him and I'm still convinced he's the only one who completely understands me.
In the evening it normally goes a lot better but like you said, somethimes I am on square one again.

We had a relationship for 5 years and he was my first love. I did everything for him...

He lives in the city I work (not a very big one) so I'm constantely afraid to bump into him and his fiancé. When I heard about them getting married I was sick for 2 days... (not a long time ago) Every time I go to work (in the very very centre of the city) I'm afraid he'll get married and I can see it.

When I talk about it with my friends, no one understands me. Because every 3 or 4 weeks I called them, crying, because I had another fight with him and he wanted to dump me, but never did.
But I don't recall the bad feelings I had in the relationship.. Somethimes I forget why we broke up and the urge is sooo big to contact him,
I know a year ago he wanted me back, I was dealing with exams and focused on those, so I ignored him,
But now it's all I can think about.. it's more like an obsession, every thought goes to him.

I've read many articles about obsession and how to 'accept' you're obsessing but nothing ever helped. I'm very desperate at the moment...

[Homegirl 50]

Are you happy with your new boyfriend? You said he is lovely but you didn't say you are happy.
Maybe you should talk to someone one. All of this after 3 years is a bit much.