[27Cheesecake]

Hi everyone,
Before I ask this question, I really need to ask that no one judge me in their answer. I know I messed up, and it's hard enough as it is.

Anyway, it is Tuesday afternoon, and on Friday night, my best friend (who is a boy) who I usually talk to every day for at least four hours, stopped talking to me. We have head so many memories together, he called me Sunshine, he used to stay up with me until 11:11 every night so we could text each other to make a wish, we used to do all nighters together over Skype, and we were inseparable. We both loved each other in a FRIEND way, but we had a crush on each other too. On Wednesday, I had said "I love you x" and he had said "I love you more x". This wasn't the first time, we often said "I love you" and stuff, but for some reason I honestly felt "sparks" or whatever you call it that time.
However, on Friday night, I told him that "Bob", my other friend, had admitted to me that he likes me. The first guy best friend I talked about immediately stopped replying to my texts after I texted him that, and hasn't talked to me since. I've texted him more than forty times, asking him why he's mad at me etc. but he hasn't replied to any of them.
But today I heard from all of his friends that he's been saying that he doesn't want to be my friend anymore because "After knowing her for a year, she got really really annoying and talks way too much."
He also said that he was going to gate crash my girl friend's birthday party and then said "Oh wait, ANNA's going, never mind then" and laughed.
And when "Bob" told him that I still really like him, he just laughed his head off and said "what an idiot."

I don't get it.

Is it because he got jealous of Bob? Or is it honestly because he just suddenly stopped loving me?

I don't understand, he was my BEST FRIEND, I've never been understood or gotten on with anyone as well as I did with him. I would never be able to just turn my back on him and everything we've been through together. So why was he able to do that? Do you think he'll ever talk to me again?
I miss him.

Thanks.

[joypulv]

Apparently he's hurt, but hiding it and pretending not to care.
On July 29, one month ago, you were very depressed and had a boyfriend. You never mentioned a 'best friend' who was male and who you talked to for 4 hours a day. Is this that 'boyfriend?? '

[Inso The Jester]

Apparently he's hurt, but hiding it and pretending not to care.
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I couldn't have said it in any other way
Most guys have the idea that he has to be hardcore and never care but trust me no one on earth can stop loving anyone suddenly

[27Cheesecake]

Apparently he's hurt, but hiding it and pretending not to care.
On July 29, one month ago, you were very depressed and had a boyfriend. You never mentioned a 'best friend' who was male and who you talked to for 4 hours a day. Is this that 'boyfriend?????'

Yes, but we decided to not go out anymore, because I always thought that going out at thirteen was too young, especially as I've been having lots of emotional issues. So we decided to still act like boyfriend and girlfriend, but without the pressure of having that official "title" or whatever you want to call it.
We've never not talked for this long before, it's a week today since he stopped talking to me. I still miss him, but I personally refuse to apologize, as it seems like I'm always the one falling all over him.
If he's not going to step up, I don't see why I should.
Half of me refuses to apologize, the other half wants to apologize because I feel that if I don't, he'll never talk to me again :(

[joypulv]

You have to live with the fact that he is hurt, upset, angry, whatever the emotion. Probably because you couldn't keep what Bob confided to you to yourself. Why would you do that? It's not a very nice thing to do to Bob, and it's not very nice to do to your 'boyfriend' or best friend or whatever he is.
You messaged me but your settings are blocked. I don't give advice outside of these boards anyway.
You have a history of depression and harming yourself, and are young to be cutting yourself over a boy. This is one reason why parents try to stifle romantic entanglements at your age. You need help for the depression and neediness. You are intelligent but have all the typical confusion about what goes on between teen girls and boys. We aren't hearing from your boyfriend, who agreed because of your 'issues' to be a boyfriend in secret but not to the world or by title - whatever that could possibly mean to HIM. Sounds demeaning to me. Especially when a potential new boyfriend looms in the arena of 'I'm too young and have issues.' Do you see why Bob might have had it? I do.

[LOLlover]

teen are confusing first your best mates and having fun then the next minute their acting like total aholes.During this age people are trying to make sense of their values, if he's being an idiot then he doesn't deserve your friendship.Also he may have gotten the wrong idea of your relationship.

hope this helped