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He would do them because he loves you and those things are considered part of romance and intimacy. See what you are missing? You don't really want that, do you.

Do you want to be pregnant for nine months and then have a baby that you have to take care of 24/7? You will no longer have your own life to live to do as you wish; you will be responsible to a very small person. And that will be only the first child. There could be more. Are you willing to raise children, teach them good behavior, and make sure they grow up to be responsible adults? That's what parenthood is all about.

Do you want to have regular sex with a husband, make him dinners, pack his lunch for work, sit and watch DVDs with him or find a babysitter and go out to dinner and a movie? If he gets sick, you are willing to help him get to a doctor? If he throws up, you will clean up the mess? If he has heart surgery, you will be in the cardiac waiting room and be willing to talk with his doctors afterwards to find out his prognosis and at-home care? That's what marriage is all about, being there and helping each other.

Instead of wishing for something that you won't like if you get it, why not work with what you've got? Of course, finding a job would be a good thing. Did you ever talk with the library people about working there, maybe shelving books or doing something in tech services, such as processing library materials? They will train you. In fact, maybe you could work for a while as a volunteer to see if you like it there. There may even be an AS job coach in your area who will work as a go-between with you and the library (or other workplace).

Well I do not wants kids so that pregnancy is out anyway. I do not mind help the husband pack lunch, do laundry and watch movies. But I do not think I can do 'regular sex.' I could not keep up with a mans schedule for that :(

Only other thing is: I do not like idea somebody is always 'there.' we could have arrangement where we do not lives in the same home maybe next door because I like my own space. Sorry.



The people at the library say they have enough volunteers. I want to work a job where I make money. I am not good at job interview, I read how the aspies people do not get hired over others. This has been a problem my whole life and all I could do were retail jobs. One time I worked in a office answering phone and filing awhile ago but that doesn't matter now. Sigh.