How do I get this person out of my head?
My ex boyfriend for some reason is always in my head! It's sooo annoying, I can't stand it. I don't want him back. We have both moved on with our lives and relationship wise but our relationship together was horrible. He was an emotional, crazy pathetic boy and I turned into a liar and a cheater afterawhile. When I first met him, I thought I could handle his drama but it was waaay too much and me being only 19 I did the best I could as far as trying to be understanding and trying to be there for him. Our relationship only lasted for three months. Sad I know. Afterawhile, I go sick of it and tried to get out of the relationship but he didn't want me to go and told me to stop being a quitter. He was driving me insane! This is a 22 year old man we're talking about and he's more emotional than I am and he was insecure. I didn't have time for that. It's a long story. We broke up, I got with someone else who I have known for a while and I tried to be friends with my ex but he kept wanting to be with me and he knew I had a boyfriend, and he would do stuff like try to kiss me and annoying crap like that. It even got to a point where I had to change my phone number because he would call or text me and start drama and get mad and say "well since you don't want to talk to me, I'll leave you alone." and I said okay, good! Two days later, who's texting me? It's crazy. Finally last month was when I had enough. I'm going to be honest, I missed being able to laugh and be silly with him so on Oovoo I saw he was online so I decided to say hey and it turned from that, to us talking about his father (which he told me he died then said he's still alive? ) to his new girlfriend calling me the B word, (mind you, I do not know this girl) and him calling me out and telling all my business from the relationship. I was blown away! First, I know he was just showing off, two, I'm thinking why is your girlfriend fighting your battles for you? three, she's saying they're in love and crap when I know they haven't been together that long. That evening was just full of drama so I had enough. I'm admitting, I was wrong for what I did to him in that relationship. Period, and also I should have just left him alone and not try to be friends with him. My point is, even after a month that that drama happened, I'm still thinking about him! I don't know why. It's not like happy thoughts, it's annoying thoughts! Anything I say, do or think about somehow it reminds me of him and it's driving me crazy. I know this was long but how can I stop? I tried ignoring the thoughts but it's not working for long.
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