[zezexoxoforever]

Okay the thing is I'm 15, and well truth of the matter is I just can't really handle my life and family situation. I have 7 siblings, I'm the oldest my moms 33 and my dads 52 (it was an arranged marraige). M eand my siblings have been token away by social services twice before, my siblings were returned to may parents after 6 mouths at court and everything. Me on the other hand was at group homes for 1 year and a few months. Now I have been back home for almost 2 years and yes my dad has stopped betting me for the most part, he still shoves me at walls or he tells me his whole life would have been better and that it was all my fault he got his children token away, he constently tells me I'm stupid,dumb,fat, ugly and a digrace and he's imbarrased to have me. When people come over to our house he acts like nothing goes on and that he's a loving, kind father. My mom has tried to stop him but she dousnt know what she can do because she can't leave him, she dousnt have a job and can barely speak english but the thing is I love her to death. Its just that I can't handle this anymore I hate waking up in the mornings and wishing I was dead or that I had the strength just kill myself but then I try to remember that I have my siblings to think about and my mom its just I don't know what else to do right now!

[joypulv]

Your mother can leave him (how easily depends some on what country you live in) but probably doesn't know how. You are a bit young to try to help her do that, but you are also old enough to at least tell her that divorce with public support and court ordered support from your dad is possible. If she won't, then all you can do is try to steer clear of him until you are of age. Stay after school, get an after school and weekend job, anything to be home less, as well as getting good grades and training for being on your own in a few short years. When you are home, TRY not to say anything. I know that's hard! Go in your room, go for a walk, say you have to study. Good luck. And let us know what your mother says.

[Gamed]

My parents were the best I could ask for ,but I had an uncle who hit me and told me I changed and ruined his brother and he broke my nose once. The problem was he saw me as an inferrior person. What changed that was I got better grades and stood up for myself.
He still hit me sometimes but that changed after I became one of the states best amateur boxers :P.

People like him can't accept what they have done and abusive people love control. Next time he says ''You're the reason my kids were taken'' ask him how. Next time he calls you ugly say ''I'm half you''. Take his control away... Also learn how to fight it will force him to talk and be humane rather than just treat you like a yapping dog and hit you.

[zezexoxoforever]

Well the thing with my mom is she's threatened to leave him before its just that my other siblings are really young, the youngest just turned 1 years old on augest 30 so she dousnt want to separeat them from their father or whatever else excuss she likes to tell me to calm down when I'm really frustrated.joypulv and Gamed thank you both but its just that, I know I'm to young to move out until I'm really 16 its just I don't know I always thought that canada would at least be able to have better social services so that maybe when your still under the age of 16 that you could move out or whatever. I do have a job so that I caan get out as much as I can but the thing is my mom needs me around to help her clean,cook,and to take care of my siblings when she's tired so its not like I can work for more then a few hours:/ the whole come backs thing with my dad dousnt really work, he just like to tell me "what kind of daughter talks back to her father like that!' then my mom will look at me like "why would you do that". the most annoying part is my dad likes to tell other family members that im such a hassel and that im teaching his children bad things and that i dress like a prostitue or a hoe bag as he likes to say,even though i wore a tishirt with a high neck level and its below my shoulder its "slutty" because it shows my arms. He thinks I should wear sweaters in the summer even though he goes shirtless to the park, like it makes me so mad.

[joypulv]

Some parents resent their children for showing signs of being better than they are - yes, better, better in school, better at finding work, betting at getting along with people, more potential for a real life. He sounds bitter over all his failures.
I hear you that you are torn between being there to help your mom and wishing you could be away from him. It's just life (I had an awful mother and a sweet father, so kind of the opposite) and we just have to endure it until we can get away.

[zezexoxoforever]

I guess your right Ill just try and remember only 3 more years and I won't have to see him and once I grow up my mom can just live with me! I don't about me being better I think he just never liked me cause I don't live up to the expectation of being a normal girl who likes pretty dresses, cooking, cleaning , and dousnt talk to back to her father if he says or does anything. I'm a stubborn child, I just hope that I can just think of the future and try to forget what goes on around me.

[MissyK1998]

I have a problem like your except I live with my grandparents and they are like that except its both of them not just one and I don't know how to handle it.

[zezexoxoforever]

Oh wow I don't know but try and take everyone else's advice that they gave me. Try to not listen to what they say even though you might want to just scream and cry and have someone to understand you, you don't have that option so go to your room or a quiet place in the house and read a book, breath slowly, listen to music,talk to the wall if you have to. From experence it gets frustratting and it does start to eat you up cause you don't know how long you can honestly handle keeping it inside but if that's the case talk to a school counsiler or a teacher you trust. The one thing that helps me is I like to go for runs or just jogging to a park or around the block a few times because it keeps your mind off your issue because your to busy sweating like a pig lol. The other thing is call kids help phone because its nice to have a little chat with someone who isn't there to judge at all. I'm sorry I couldn't be much help. Another idea is you could get a job! it's a great way to make extra cash for thing like maybe to go too movies or something and it lets you meet new people:) So I hope I helped and I'm sorry I don't know what else to say.