[Spaniard89]

Hello members, this would be my first time I would be sharing something personal about my life to anyone.

Well to begin with I fell in love with a girl, I met 8 months back. We started talking to each other frequently, texting and stuff. If I don't see her in a day, I felt I was missing something in my life. So once I took a chance and proposed her. But she blindly denied saying, she's not ready for a relationship. After that I started avoid her as much as I can. And we didn't talk to each other for at least a month.

After a while, things started getting better. We started talking and we became close to each other. And once she accepted me as her boyfriend saying, she would want to be in an open relationship with me. We kiss other, but until now she hasn't allowed me to touch her. She says she's doesn't enjoy sexual pleasure. But at the same time, she always wanted me to get naked in front of her. But she wouldn't remove her clothes. She always gives me blow job, but wouldn't allow me to touch her.

Few months passed, and a while back I moved to another city as I found a job there. And then we started talking very often. My feelings for her were very high. I was putting all the effort I could put to build the relationship. But from her side, I did not see any effort. Once I decided to ask for closed relationship and I guaranteed her that, she would be only girl I would be marrying. But she denied, saying she doesn’t wants to have any commitments from life. She's a bit complicated and I know she really cares for me. She used to cook food for me. She used to buy me gifts now and then. I really love and care this girl, but I am not getting any effort from her. She even once said that I forced her to be my girlfriend, I didn't. She herself asked me.

I don't know what to do. I don't know how to convince her on this. I really like her. She's always there in my mind. I am not able to work properly or do any other thing. Somewhere in my mind, I always feel that she doesn't trust me.

Any help would be very much appreciated.

[talaniman]

You can't blame her for wanting to keep her options open, and keep you at a distance because for sure she doesn't want to be committed to just you, or think of marrying you at this time.

Knowing that,maybe you should just be happy with occasionally dating and keeping your life more balanced with other things besides her. I have seen many females, mostly with other friends and priorities in life do the same thing she is doing to keep you around because they do like you enough to spend time, but not as a life mate.

That's just how they feel so drop the marriage idea for now, and see if you can just date and have fun, as you learn each other. Maybe its your culture, or tradition to propose so soon, but she isn't going in that direction right now, so don't push.