[MsHara93]

Ok so my first love was this guy I met years ago at basketball when I was like 13-14 . I didn't really know him but I knew of him . I didn't like him back then , I guess I was never interested.. Well I saw him ( few years later ) at my best friends 17th birthday . And we talked and got to know each other a but better . That night was the first night I had lost my V plates. After that we started to hang out . I knew he was "well known" everyone had a turn but I don't know... He was really different with me . He made me feel special . ANYWAY ! I am so in love with him . It had been about two years and we have been on and off . He tells all my friends that I am special and I am not like other girls . Yet , whenever we sleep together . He would stay all night , cuddle then hen he would go home it was a kiss you don't want to stop and then gone . Doesn't text me , call me . Anything . Yet whenever he wants something he ALWAYS texts me . I have tried so hard not to love him . But it's so darn hard... I have been seeing this guy for a few months now . And the only reason why I don't want to do anything ( not even kiss him ) is because I still love the idiot that I've been in love with my since I was 17 ! I feel sorry for the guy I'm dating but I don't think I can get over my first love... What should I do? It's so hard...