[DivaDiy]

Ok. I have been dating a chick named (B) for 5yrs. She was my 1st girlfriend & I love her. Through the 5yrs we have ad ups & downs (fighting, arguing all the time, cheating) but we still manage to stay together and work out on things. This woman is ride or die, she has been with me through me being sick, and is very opened that she will ride for me through thick and thin. 2012 February we the time we separated because I stepped out of our relationship and did porn to make some quick money. She found out that I had did that in the yr 2010, but she was very upset I did it and then since it was old and she didn't know was adding fuel to the fire. We split up because she couldn't forgive me because of what I did. She looked at me and said "I can't even look at u the same, I don't want to even have sex with u". I felt so bad, embarrassed, ashamed. I apologized for a week or so trying to work on things, and explained to her that what I did was the past, and it can't be changed, she could either forgive me or not. I just couldn't let her make me feel so bad because I felt bad after I had did that in 2010 and I didn't want to go back to that because it was a yr and a half ago. She told me to move out, and I did for 2 months. I tried to work on stuff but she wasn't having it. So in the 2 months we were broken up I meet a girl named (S). She was so sexy, and we hit it off great. We started spending a lot of time together, and I thought I was over my ex because I wasn't thinking about her, and I was happy. She asked me to be wit her & I accepted. A month went by, we were still together but I wasn't for sure it was real or not. Time goes by. One day I so happen to look in my new girlfriend phone, and saw naked pctures of woman in her phone and disturbing text messages. I was furious! Upset, hurt, because dam I thought that she was not like that. She tried to give a bogus excuse saying she wa playing with the chick, it was just entertainment. Is that forgivable?? I wasn having it, I immediately broke up with her, and called my Ex and tried to work out things with her. My ex shut me down, hurted to me to the core, told me she didn't want me no more, she moved on, and everything. I don't give up. She finally gave in and now we are back living together, and we are doing better, but now my Ex (s) the one I was only wit for 2 months, is now back in the picture. I forgave her for the incident and we chill, and hangout often. The 2 doesn't know about each other. I'm feeling guilty because I want both! I know I can't have both. So what do I do? Stick with my girlfriend who I been wit for 5yrs, or the new chick I been wit for 2 months that I think about & want to be with everyday??

[Homegirl 50]

Did you go back to the first girl because you didn't have anybody or because you wanted to be with her?
What you really ought to do is leave the first girl alone. She had moved on and you kept at it until she came back and now you're thinking about the second one? Are you being led by your penis or your heart. Leave girl number one alone. She was fine until you got lonely.

[DivaDiy]

I only went back to the old chick because the new one ed up. If she wouldn't have ed up, I would have never went back to my ex. I guess your right I'm only wit my 1st ex because of the time we ha together and I have a fear of being alone.

[DivaDiy]

Im so confused.

[Homegirl 50]

Im so confused.

You are being selfish. Leave your old girl friend alone. She was doing fine without you. Spend some time alone
You don't know what you want, so stop hooking up with people just to have somebody

[DivaDiy]

U are absolutely right. She was doing well without me, but I know she still loved me. The other chick, it's a bit too early on to know what she's about but I do love her, and I think she loves me back. It's gong to be hard but a decision has to be made because I don't want to her nobody, but I don't want to hurt myself either

[Homegirl 50]

Don't continue to be selfish. Man up and do the right thing