[littlelillypad]

When I was 7, I am 20 now I was touched bby my babysitter. I hate hugs and recently have been getting so anxious about what happened to me. It is so weird, I have managed to keep it in for a good decade and only my best friends knows. I don't know who to talk to? Am I normal about it only getting to me years later. I can't talk to my mum as we do not see eye to eye - she rejoiced at my father's death in 07 and is emotionally v selfish.my grandparents are all dead and I would never talk to a teacher. I'm currently am on sleeping tablets and anxiety pills but have been told I need to start talking but to a random stranger :( I fear I'll never want to do therapy but I have started to get horrid flashbacks and feel small - something that I have never felt. Can you get a delay to "traumatic touch"? ;(

[Fr_Chuck]

First why could you not talk to a teacher, But why can't you do therapy, it can often do wonders.

I would say that on your mom, is there reasons you don't know about, was she treated bad, was she abused by him, She may have a lot different memories of your dad than you do.

[jhowell10]

I was sexually abused by my step dad, I think I was 8-10 years old. All I remember is it happened so many times and I hated it. I am a 21 year old male. I was pentetrated analy and I had to perform oral on him as he did me too. I hated it so much yet I could never tell him to stop. My mom and step dad are still together today. I have never told anyone about my abuse as Im scared and embarrassed. I don't want my wife to hate him or my brothers to hate him. It gets worse. My real Father was killed by a drunk driver while he was on a motorcycle while my mom was pregnant with me. So I can't speak of my abuse ever because I love my mom and want her to be happy and the same with my 2 brothers. The embarasment I will face and the shame of never saying no. I feel it will do more harm than good to speak of my abuse. If I tell someone about it I'm afraid my brothers and mother would hate him and like I said... he is the only rembrance of a father any of us have.

[Heyy99]

I was abused when I was little while my mom was at work by people but I can't remember but no one ever forgets getting raped :"( I'm so scared to tell my mom that I was raped because knowing how she's half crazy and bi-polar I don't think she will believe me and I'm 17 years old can I get into foster care to get away from the family? How do I tell my consular and how do they tell my mom? I don't want her to yell at me