[johnCarter233]

I think I need some help.

I should be happy. There's not much for me to be sad about. The only bad thing that comes to mind is my family. It's been a bit ****ty lately, but in spite of this nothing's really that bad for me.

My brother moved out and then back in over the course of a few months, and during that time all my parents managed to do is fight. They just yelled at each other all the time. It's obvious they wanted to divorce, but since I'm under 18 I'd be complicating that or something. Eventually, once my brother came back, they stopped, and overall I guess this has just been confusing for me.

After that, nothing really changed for me. Everything kind of went back, but I just haven't really felt right. At school I've seen a girl. I'd just want to say hi or something at least, but I can't. It's like I'm not there any more, and whenever I think about that it just makes me want to die. I see everyone else all happy and I'm sitting aside like something's wrong with me. Many of my friends have left me in a sense. They're hanging out with other people, doing things one generally would at my age. A few of my friends moved away too, and ultimately I've just been getting to be alone a lot now.

As for me, I have a problem where I keep cutting myself. Almost every night now I do it. I'm not telling anyone and keep it hidden, but what has really been bothering me is when I look towards my wrist. Generally, I stick with my leg, but a few times I just feel so empty, like I just want to die. I feel like I'm in pain and don't want to have to feel anything ever again.

[axdwdrgc]

Your suffering from depression is what I suspect. Before you go to bed try this game that I call two sweets and a sour. What you do is that you think of a list of bad things that happened that day and then you make a list of good things that have happened. You can't stop until your good list is longer than your bad by at least two. You may also want to start talking to a councilor or try to figure out why your feeling this way. Talk to someone you trust because if you leave it inside nothing good comes out of that.
Hoped this helped and feel better :) :) :)
PS play the game every night till your feelings dial down some