[Insomniac414]

Well I'm a 20 year old male who happens to be a virgin. Its not that I'm bad with women but there is a good reason. When I was 14 or 15 I noticed my first bump on my penis, didn't pay it no mind for about 2 years. A week after my 18th b-day I got fed up, went to my doctor and he said I have nothing to worry about just wait a year or 2. A year after that one of the bumps got to the size of a pencil eraser, got real hard, opened up and started becoming painful. Next morning I go to planned parenthood to get tested/cultured. She diagnosed it as moluscus contagioum and all tests came back negative... HAPPY DAY!. now I'm here, talking to someone I'm interested in a lot but I still have these bumps. Id go back to the docs or planned parenthood but I have noooo money. These bumos have caused me so much depression and anxiety that I couldn't cope with stepping out of the house at all. I dropped out freshman year, resorted to any drug I could get my hands on for happiness, lost all my friends because I didn't have any desire to keep in touch with them, and the worst thing is I stress about it every single day that I think about suiciede almost equally. Any advice on how to make these bumps go away would be very appretiated, I'm on the edge over here.

[LadySam]

I did some research for you and came up with these siteshttp://www.mayoclinic.com/health/molluscum-contagiosum/DS00672

Homepage | CDC Molluscum Contagiosum

Before you go to read them though listen to what I have to say to you OK?
Don't be so hard on yourself, this is a very common thing, it mostly affects children but can affect adults. But you were only in your teens when it showed up right?
Some of the information doesn't paint a pretty picture, I'll not sugarcoat that for you.
But read it, there are tips on preventing recurrence and treatment options.
I know, noooo money, is there a community health center near you. There has to be a county health department. Pay them a visit, and see if they can assist you with this.
And address the depression and anxiety with someone while you are there, most counties have resources for these things.
Now, to the girl you are just talking right now, no need to rush into anything.
Get to know her, let her get to know you. Take your time.
You're young and have much going for you I'm sure.
When the time comes and you are comfortable enough to discuss it with her be sure to EDUCATE her about it, that will be key in her understanding it.
Any gal worth her salt and your time will be open, understanding and accepting.
People accept many things in the name of love and mutual respect.

Now get to reading mister,
I wish you great luck

[LadySam]

Molluscum contagiosum - MayoClinic.com

I'm not sure why it didn't show up as a link earlier, but here you go, this site has very clear, concise information.