[lengluiroo]

I know my life isn't as bad as it could be..
But I honestly just don't see a reason to live anymore :/
I have 1 friend who occasionally texts me... And that's it..
My dad emotionally abuses me.. Sometime is physically he's alcoholic drinks about almost every.. Day
He stops me from doing anything I ever wanted to do
I can't go live with my mom so I have to deal with him everyday I think about dying almost everyday.. But I just continue to live hoping it will be better in the future..
But now I just feel like I just have no reason to live anymore..

[longhaul]

Hey

Would you believe me if I said I could relate? I was married to a person who emotionally and mentally destroyed me on a daily basis to feel control. We had kids together and eventually she became physical on occasion. She made me push my family away, and her family didn't really like me like they should have. I felt lost. I hated my life, and I tried checking out... twice, but could never follow through. I went on craigslist and made a post about some of this and someone answered-we talked. Just talk until we met, fell in love and I can say, I've never been happier in all my life.

My point is, stuff in my life wasn't worth fighting for until I found something to fight for. Don't pull the plug-when you feel that there's no hope, that's when you're life will turn. Hold on to that one friend. Have you mentioned any of this to them? Have you made an anonymous call to a counselor? Hang in there-it does get better.

[Swiss_Ms.B]

Iengluiroo,

life can be hell if you are in a situation in which you see no perspectives. Not knowing where you live, I can't really say that there is help right around the corner. Is there a helpline you could call? Are you still in school? If so, would there be a teacher you could approach and open up to?

If you are around even just one person who constantly says that you aren't worth anything, it is hard to recognize your own value. But everyone has a reason to live, even if your true purpose in life has not yet occurred to you yet.

Longhaul is right about finding something to fight for. I think you deserve better circumstances. You had the courage to express what you are feeling. This is something others have a hard time with. This shows strength on your part. Keep being strong for yourself and a time will come when you can be strong for others and you will then recognize your true reason to live.