[Dreamjournal2]

I don't feel like I belong on this earth. When I begin to think I always come to the conclusion that this world id not for me. Its not as if I want to die, simply that I don't feel like I belong here. The world we live in now just seems to further the idea's and notions in my head. I dislike humans to an extreme but not with a rage. Iv'e never felt as if I connected or empathized with any human or person. I always feel a yearning for something I do not understand and it vexes me so. The yearning I feel is something I don't quite understand either because I don't know what I yearn for. If anyone has any idea's, I beg of you to share them. Thanks.

[DoulaLC]

I would highly recommend volunteering some of your time in helping others.

It is often when we step outside of ourselves, our wants, our needs, our plans, our own thoughts, that we find what it is to feel a connection to those around us. When you do for others without any expectations in return.

Contact your local humane society to see what sort of things you can do for the animals there. Perhaps you will find a purpose in working with animals.

Check with a local hospital for ways to help. You might find the joy on a sick child's face when you come to play with them or read to them fills you with what you are yearning for but can't put your finger on.

Contact local churches, even if you are not religious, they will often welcome the help. Shelters, soup kitchens, etc.. Local schools often need volunteers to work with struggling students.

You might contact your city or community administrative offices and see what is available for helping within your community.

Big sister/brother organisation, nursing homes, a guardian ad litem program, local zoo or animal park, etc. There are many opportunities.

What are your interests? You could even volunteer time here in answering questions, offering support, and providing information on topics you enjoy yourself.

I know it can be difficult at times to see the good in the world, with all the negative you read and hear about, but the majority of people are inherently good. It is unfortunate that often it's the negative aspects that make the news/papers/even television shows. Sensationalism sells... plain and simple.

Sometimes you have to make the first move to go out, try different things, and discover what fills that yearning for you.