[TheWriggler]

Hi,

Me and my boyfriend broke up on Friday.:(
We have been going out for a year and were totally blissfully happy and in love, did everything together.
We went on holidays together to Europe and the day we were going he was told by his office he would have to go away to England for work for 1-3 weeks... which I was fine with.
Then 1-3 weeks turned to 5, which turned to 8 and now the 8 weeks are up he found out he won't be back and has to stay in England.
During the 8 weeks his office had him working 7am to 7-8 pm, staying in hotels and having to eat with his work colleagues (who ar all older and talk solely about work constantly... not his style)

He was miserable this whole time, he wasn't the same person, he had no one to talk to and no time to himself and our conversations were the same monatomous "blah" talk everyday, started to feel like he was just checking in cause he had too, a chore. He came home 3 weekends during this time to me and of course when we were back together it was just like old times, totally loved up and happy.

On Thursday his work told him he would be staying in England, so on Friday he flew home to me and told me he wouldn't be back and wanted to break up :(
It was terrible, he said it wasn't a relationship anymore, that he hated this and we never see each other anymore. We got a taste of long distance and it just doesn't work with us.
He cried so hard, more than I did and said it wasn't just because they are taking him away, he'd been thinking about doing it already and thought that even if he came home it would robably still happen cause he started to think we "werent right for eachother" and that he didn't think he loved me anymore. :(

I don't believe this though, only me and him know how we were and what we had was love, totally real, never even had a fight or an argument in a year. I just think the time away, him being so miserable has poisoned his mind, made him sour and he has thought all this because of our time apart.
What do you think?

He has cried sore twice on the phone to me since, would he be this upset if he didn't still love me? He says I was his life for a year, his best friend and he will miss me so much he cannot even begin to think about it.:( I feel the total same, makes me sick to think about it.
I'm not sure... I think I need (and he needs) total lack of communication from each other from here on in, I think he needs the time to realise what life totally without me is like, no calls, texts, nothing.

I am in bits ladies :(. Not eating, sleeping, cannot stop crying, its like someone has died... while I suppose in a way they have :( I know I'll get better in time but its just so raw at the moment :(

Its just so unfair :( I refuse to believe anything he is saying at the moment cause his mind is so posioned, bitter, miserbale and angry atm.

Please help, any advice at all would be so much help, from what I have read most of us our in the same boat, nursing a broken heart and I think that's the advice I need right now, people going through similar things, my friends are great but they don't understand this and talking about it in person or over the phone sends me to bits constantly, over the internet is so much easier.

Thanks x