[annabear]

For about a year now, every night, and I mean EVERY night, I cry for maybe an hour or so until I fall asleep. I actually enjoy school because I have a lot of friends and they make me happy and I forget about my sad feelings. But when I get home, it just starts again. I cry because I am struggling to get over an ex that never loved me, and said it right to my face, and all the stress I feel because I think I'm bi or les. And I'm such a young girl. And I lost my first friend I ever had because of this. And yeah she wasn't much of a friend if she doesn't accept me, but what hurts is that somebody thinks so strongly against me, that they have the nerve to tell me that "I hope you die and cut yourself." I am SO emotionally sensitive and I am getting weaker day by day. Never would I commit suicide because I know I have people that love me. But anyway, does anybody have advice or words of encouragement for me? Because anything somebody says nice of me, I don't take for granite. I savor it. Because not all people feel hate toward me.

[amicon]

Can you talk to your parents?

A school nurse?

It would help to talk to a real person who could advice you.

Take care.

[88sunflower]

First if you have been having these feelings for about a year maybe its time to share these feelings with someone. A real person. I am no counselor but what is your main struggle? Is it the loss of the ex? Your feelings of being bi or lesbian? Try writing out your thoughts and break it down. What's hurting you most right now. Work on it one at a time.

In my opinion your at a tough age I am sure to be feeling undecided in your sexuality. But if you can gain the strength to be happy with what ever your choice is then take that and run with it. Be happy for who you are. Its tough but never mind any opinions your friends have on you. No matter who you are they will have an opinion. This is why there are so many stereotypes. Snob, jock, scums whatever they may be you will fit a stereotype one way or another. Learn to grasp who you are and be happy. You can do anything you want to do if you just set your mind to it. Just remember one thing. Your friends can't bring you down unless you let them bring you down.

[annabear]

I'm not really sure what the major issue is but I think about them all at once. And another problem is that I don't want to talk to a counselor. Or my parents. They will think something is majorly wrong with me. I'm just seeing if there is a way to help without going to see professional people or any sort of stuff like that. I know that's the best thing to do though. But I feel VERY uncomfortable talking to someone about it

[Wondergirl]

And another problem is that I don't want to talk to a counselor. [He] will think something is majorly wrong with me.
Actually, you cannot get through this alone. Only talking about it with an unbiased, uninvolved person will do the trick. That person is a counselor.

The counselor will listen and won't judge you, will help you figure out your feelings but won't criticize you for having them, even the mad ones and the mean ones and the violent ones. Every one of my clients expressed incredible relief that they could finally vent and scream and cry and just let loose, yet not get yelled at or be scolded or judged. "Just letting it all out was the best thing I ever did," said one young woman. "I feel like a ton of bricks have been taken off my shoulders."

Maybe finding a woman counselor would be a good thing, or would you feel more comfortable talking with a man?

Have you tried writing everything down (including how you felt about stuff), just to vent on paper?

[88sunflower]

What is the worse that can happen if you do speak with a counselor or your parents? Maybe get the help you need or are seeking indirectly? I think it would be a very wise decision. You can open up and vent here any time of the day. But I have a good feeling the majority would rule with the advice you have already been given.