You are not that little young, naïve, dumb girl of 20 any more, nor can you act like it. What you did was stupid then, and more so now. Sure your old feeling were stirred up again, and like most of us we only remember the good. Think back while he fills your fantasy, how he used you for sex also, and tell me why you would forget that.
We are all humans, and old feelings are easily stirred up again by people, places, and things all the time. Its human, but common sense dictates we don't act on those old feelings, and let them lead us to crossing the lines of good behavior.
They will fade if you leave him alone and get busy with your real life and tend to your husband and kids.
All my past exes have haunted me on, and off again, over the years, and I think that's true of everyone. I for one ain't going back to those days as all my happiness is right here.
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