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Destiny or misfortune?
I have been very confused about a situation that I encountered about April 2006. You see the story starts like this, when I was in jr high, I was crazy about this guy (John). We met through a mutual friend of ours and ended up in a childish relationship that only lasted a semester. We actually lost our virginity to each other. Because of that mutual friend's lies we actually broke up. We lost contact after that. I went on to High school were I met my son's father whom I was with for 4 yrs. That whole time John constantly came to mind, to the point where I considered naming my son after him. My son's father and I didn't work out so we called it quits in 04 and I moved back to my moms place in the same neighborhood where that old mutual friend of ours also happened to live. I ran into Johns younger brother then a couple of times in the past two years and asked him to say hi for me. He never did (kept forgetting my name, he didn't know me too well) I ran into him again in April 06 I figured he'd forget so I grabbed his arm and wrote, "how have you been hi from an old friend p.s don't forget where your freakiness started love, Jane" Rumors where that he had a son and that he was with the mother. So when his brother asked for my # 2 give to him I refused. John got the message went to that mutual friend to contact me. I got his # 4rm her and called it. We ended up talking the whole night then at about 4 in the morning we hang up, he pops up @ my place, I come downstairs. I felt butterflies in my stomach, he looked so good, we hugged I invited him in, we hug again we start kissing, one thing lead 2 another. I admit though, I was doing most of the leading, and we end up having sex. He staid over that whole day after that. About a week later he ends it with his son's mother (they where having problems prior to meeting with me.) We kept seeing each other quite often for the next couple of months after that but then it got to the point where he wanted to talk and the conversation ended in him saying I deserve so much more than what he was giving me and that he didn't feel emotionally ready to jump into another relationship so we had to stop having sex, that didn't work, then finally we both agreed to stop seeing each other completely, and it's been like that for the past couple of months he sends me text messages every so often telling me he misses me but that's about it. I really care about him and the fact that we crossed paths after 8 yrs I mean I don't know what to think of it. I haven't been in any relationships with anyone in the past three yrs. And it was like there where always guys after me but I turned them down and now that there is someone that I would give anything in the world to be with it can't be. Any opinions, or comments would help what should I do?
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