[kitty17]

My daughter is bipolar.She is a beautiful intellligent 23 year old but I find she is self destructive.she doesn't smoke drink nor touch drugs and has no friends and was home schooled.I split with her aggressive alcoholic father when she was 4 years old.I suffered a lot in my life phisically and emotionally.I always tried to be a great mother and totally spoil her.she is an only child.we had a good life until we moved to spain then I met a terrible man who caused us a lot undescribable suffering.she has never forgiven me and blames me.we went through a lot of hardship, homlessness and things horrible at times but we've always been really close.she has never had a bofriend and I think she's afraid of men.we are now living in the u.k but we both aren't happy here... we live I the middle of the countryside and its boring freezing and depressing.I hate my life here as does she and she vents all her anger on me and blames me for her life going wrong.her bipolar is at times severe and she gets verbally aggressive and says cruel things that hurt me a lot like she hates me.she is so smart and beautiful and wasting her life but does nothing to change her situation and lays in bed all day depressed on the internet.she is very loving and sweet but when the bipolar rears she is like a different person I don't recognise.I feel stressed anxious and depressed and worry about her mental state... when she's having a low mood she woders off alone and I worry myself sick... she says I'm over bearing, clingy, possessive and won't let her be alone but its because I'm so worried about her 24/7.I love her so much but I can't cope living like this... I just want her to be happy have a great life and stop blaming me for everything that's gone wrong in her life... I have never hurt her intentionally but decisions I've made have definitely caused her a lot of pain and sadness... I don't smoke drink or take drugs and have been single 8 yearsand I get so depressed and lonely... I don't know what to do.. I just wish she would stop hating me for my mistakes... she is the world to me...

[Fr_Chuck]

You posted this as a answer so someone else's question. This site does not work like a blog. Since I really don't see a question either was not sure, but it was not a answer to the other question.

[jenniepepsi]

I'm going to assume you are looking for advice or support. I don't know how you feel, but I know how your daughter feels. I am 26, bipolar and adhd (and some other issue but aren't relevant) and honestly the best thing that could ever have happened, was when people STOPPED worrying about me. Yes its hard. But when someone is constantly worried about how you are doing, or how you are managing things, its like someone is always looking over your sholder waiting for you to screw up.
Once everyone stopped asking, wondering, and thinking about 'is she doing ok' I did much better. I wasn't so self conscious.

I hope that makes sense hon. Your daughter will be fine. Have faith in her. Love her. And be there for her. But don't worry about her, and don't communicate to her that you are worried.