[freeranger]

One day I see this women, my fellings where just amazing, I was walking past and just could not take my eyes of her.
Asked myself what was wrong with me and why? I could not take my eyes of her, she noticed and she smilled and tilted her head.

I was surprised at her reaction, and keep seeing her at work and she always gives me a very nice look.
One day in the coffee room she sits on the counter and starts talking to me.
So we talked a few minutes nothing real came out of it.
Being very timid and I mean timid, don't want to get hurt anymore, I am not the best looking man.

After a while , decided to send her an email with what I felt that day.
She wrote back saying , don't know what to say except I am maried and have children.
Also wrote about the coffee room ,she said she did not remember this.
Stated thinking that I dreamed all of this, became really uneasy about the whole thing, so accepted.
It was heartbreaking, but to me that was it.

It was not, still seeing her at work, some days she looked at me just like she was playing me.
I really started regretting sending that mail, so I let it go,then one day, I started noticing differences.
I mean differences like! Seemed to be taller some days, so looked to see if she was wearring high heels she is not.
One day I noticed differences in her lips, then it hit me, God! Identical sisters, now I get it!!
So finally, I see it, but that`s not all not one but 2 sisters.
This to me became a grey zone, they replace each other at work so of course it`s touchy.
So this made me act a little weird started sending emails that where just plain dum.
One I wrote, I drank too much and see triple. I angered one.
But why does she not talk to me? A person writes a love mail and you just leave him the dark.
So I became even stupider, great word...
So 2 weeks ago, I see her at the elevator she turns and gives me a smile that just melted me ,could not remove my eyes from her.
But the person I was talking with was joking and made me laugh, and she got frustrated.

So I cannot take it anymore, decided put my pants on and go and ask to talk to her for 2 minutes, the reaction I got was the most humiliating moment of my life.In front of her colleagues she just got in my face, yelled at me and I walked away broken down real bad. I could her her say now you worry me.

Now I changed all my habits at work not to run into her, now I know that I got really played to the point of making me look like
I was harassing her, what a stupid idiot .
One day I did see her and she looked at me with hate in her eyes, but who is who in this.
This is hauting me , I do not want revenge or even hurt her in any way, but all of sudden getting ideas of not wanting to live anymore cause this is the worst pain I have ever felt and it`s not going away.

Why did I not just stay timid. Can`t take it no more.

[Jake2008]

Please seek help from a professional about these confusing thoughts you have. From what you have written, it sounds like the thoughts you have had about this woman have taken on a life of their own. You have created a connection with her, where there is none. You have read far too much into her having reciprocal feelings for you, where none exist. You suggest that there are two of her; twins, and that has caused some of your confusion. Clearly your thinking is causing you distress, and I urge you to speak to a counsellor, in person, about exactly what you have said here.

This woman has told you she is married, with children, and is clearly not interested in you. That you now feel scorned and ridiculed is inappropriate, because she has done nothing to encourage you, or you behaviour, toward her. You have created a situation here that needs to be addressed, before it goes any further and you get yourself into a lot of trouble.

Please seek out a counsellor, and in the meanwhile, consider too visiting your family doctor, and also explain how you have been feeling, and what has happened lately to have you feeling so distraught. I don't know the last time you have talked to anyone about your problems, but my advice to you is, you need help sorting out reality from fantasy, and how and why you have come to be so confused.

You are blaming her for 'playing you' to the point of where you are seen now, as harassing her. In other words that she is somehow responsible for causing you to behave the way you have. Try to understand that feelings like these are misplaced, and resentment and anger toward her, is inappropriate to say the least.

Please, seek help before this goes any further. Print out, and bring what you have posted here, to your Doctor, and hopefully a counsellor that you will either be referred to, or that you seek on your own.

[Alty]

She didn't humiliate you, she was making it clear once and for all that she's not interested and you should stop harassing her.

I agree with Jake, it's time for you to seek professional help to deal with the issues you're having. You seem to be making a mountain out of a molehill. A woman talks to you, or smiles at you and you automatically think that she wants a relationship with you. From the beginning when you approached her she told you she's married, she has kids. That was her way of saying that you're imagining her interest because there is none. You didn't let it go there though, you continued to harass her, to push her, and she couldn't take it anymore.

Please, get help.